The fire within

Chapter 5 more than friends

Invisibilly what are you doing in here are..are you crying?
Oh my god Bill are you Cutting yourself!?😧
Does it really matter if I do?
Yes it does!
I don't want you to cut yourself.
What were you thinking?
I-Is that a box cutter??😧
Yeah...But you probably hate me now
do you?🥺
Bill I-I don't hate you.
I'm just a shocked.
Why would you ever cut yourself especially with a box cutter?
(I took it from him and threw it on the other side of the room)
You know you didn't have to throw it right?
I don't care.
Now tell me why you're hurting yourself.
Because feeling any other kind of pain helps me forget what is really hurting me the most.
please come on out of the closet and let's talk.
Please stop acting like it's the end of the world.
It feels like it is but Alright...
(He wiped his face and I wrapped his arm with a blue scarf that I found in the closet.
He brought me over to his bed and told me everything.
I was a little weirded out because I still thought of him as a brother.
But this is your chance to fuck him it's the perfect opportunity to do so.
Jeff stop talking now because I'm just about to leave)
Heatblast I-I really do love you.
And the thought of seeing you with someone else it...it kills me.😞
You were always there for me.
You always stood up for me if I needed you.
You were the only person who ever made me happy and made me feel like I belonged.
I-I started to have feelings for you the year after we met and I started to like you even more as time went on.
I tried to push it aside but I couldn't lie to myself anymore.
Bill I-I had no idea you feelings for me in that way or that you were even gay.
Why do you think I never told you.
I didn't want you to think differently of me.
I didn't want to lose my first and only friend.
Bill I would never think any differently of you.
You don't have to be ashamed or scared to tell me anything.
And besides I think it's cool that you're gay.
Y-You're not mad at me?
No Why on earth would I be mad at you for being gay?
I don't know...Because I kept it a secret for so long.
And I didn't want everybody to know because I didn't want people to judge me.
Bill no one is going to judge you.
if my mom found out I was gay or that I even liked you she would have beaten the crap out of me.
Oh...I kinda forgot about her.
But Now that ya tell me I do remember the times you did get a little clingy around me when I hung out with the guys.
Or when I had a girlfriend.
I'm so sorry.🥺
Hey Don't be sorry.
You have nothing to be sorry about.
I feel ashamed of myself.
I should have told you a while ago but I didn't want to lose you.
You were the only friend I ever had.
You were always there for me when I needed someone.
I'm so sorry.😖
I didn't want to tell you not like this.
But I couldn't wait anymore I had to tell you.
I had to stop lying to myself.
It's not a big deal.
You don't have to be sorry I understand.
I couldn't stand watching you with someone else.
I know I sound selfish but I wanted you all to myself.😞
Bill...it's alright.
Just breathe okay.
(His cheeks were red and tears fell from his face.
This hoe gonna kiss you.
What no shut the fuck up)
No it's not alright.
I'm sorry...for everything.
For hurting myself and for hurting you.
I-I never wanted you to know...not like this.
And I feel like a complete asshole for telling you.
Bill you didn't hurt me or yourself...well minus the cutting.
If anything I'm the asshole for not always being there for you.
I love you Bill and I don't want you to feel bad or anything.
I don't want to lose you too.
You're the only person who I could consider family to me.
You're just saying that to make me feel
better.🥺
Hey I mean it.
You're the most important person that I know.
I care about you a lot.
That's what you say when you can't think of anything.
No I don't.
I really do mean it.
Bill if you were gone I don't know what I'll do.
I known you for years and seeing you like this I-It kills me more than it kills you.
How?
I've been hiding my feelings from you every day for 12 years.
And the fact that I finally told you it feels like a bat being swung against my head.
I thought if I told you I...I thought all the pain of me keeping it a secret would just
go away but it still hurts.
I wanted to tell you before but I was too scared.
Scared that you would reject me and I didn't want to lose my best friend.
I deserve to get the shit kicked out of me.
I don't deserve a friend as good as you.😭
Bill I-I uh had no idea that you felt this way before...
There's a lot of things you don't know about me still.
If what you're saying is true do I...Do I really mean that much to you??
I don't want to talk anymore Just drop
it okay.
Bill you got to Stop crying and Try to breathe okay.
Your face is red you look like you're gonna faint.
O-Okay.😮‍💨
I'm sorry.
Why are you apologizing?
I don't know.😖
I'm just a fucking mess right now.
Don't say that about yourself.
I-It's true.
You're not a mess Bill you're just upset.
You just need to take a breather and relax.
Okay you're right.
(To be honest I really don't know what else to say to him.
I'm just trying to make him feel better but I think I'm just making it worse.
The room went quite for a little.
My eyes were just wandering around until I saw an old photo album on his night stand)
Can I look at that?
Huh?
Yeah sure go ahead.
Damn I can't believe you have all these pictures?
I thought they were gone for good.
Huh?
What pictures?
Back When we were in high school.
Oh Yeah...
I would never get rid of them.
I was always taking photos when I had the chance.
There's some in there of our graduation.
Jesus you and your fucking Polaroid.
I like Polaroid cameras.
I like the classic look of them.
Where is that thing anyway.
Well My brother destroyed it...he threw it out the window because I wouldn't let him use it.
Your brother is retarded.
Literally tell me something I don't know.
Do you still have the camera fragments?
I can probably fix it for you.
Yeeeeah no.
After he threw it out the window I ran downstairs to grab it from the street.
Right when I got to the sidewalk an Amazon truck ran it over.
I was so pissed off I wanted to deck him.
But now all I have I blank Polaroid sheets.
I fucking hate your family.
I do too.
You know I never really had any friends growing up besides you and the guys.
Did you forget about Yayyow?
Of course not.
I don't know why but I always got this weird feeling that she knew somethings would happen before anyone else.
I kind of gotten the same vibe too.
It's like she knew us but at the same time she was like a stranger.
How so?
She was always ahead of everybody else.
And sometimes she would...disappear
And she would come back a week or two later.
I mean she is a pop star.
She's always gone.
But I do agree about what You said with her acting like a stranger.
Either way I'm glad that you guys were my friends.
The day you asked me to be your friend was the happiest day of my life.
It was also the day I lost a part of my frontal lobe.
I'm sorry I did my best to get rid of the pole.
I know.
But now I have a cool scar on the top of my head.
Did you have any friends on your home planet.
Bill...I was 3 I had no friends.
I was in a spaceship for 7 years remember?
R-Right sorry😅
It's fine.
But I still don't know why My family stopped at nothing to prevent me from having friends.
Or why they treat me the way they do.
Because they suck.
But How does it feel being friends with an alien?
At first exhausting because I had to keep you out of trouble but now Pretty cool.
The fact you have Pyrokinesis is amazing.
It's not as cool as you think.
I mean Yeah I can do some cool things with it but it has some flaws.
Breathing fire when you sneeze.😂
Always being hot.
And trying to keep my body temperature in the hundreds so I don't freeze to death.
You should be happy to don't need to shovel in the winter time.
You can just melt all the snow off your property.
That is a fucking life saver.
The fact I don't own a shovel or a snow plow is amazing.
Oh my god remember when you sneezed that one time in science class and you set Cleo's hair on fire.😂
Holy shit I forgot about that.😂
Yeah I remember She was being so fucking annoying that day because Duce broke up with her.
Literally wouldn't stop talking about it.
Thank god for Lagoona with the bucket of water.😂
Fucking Clawdeen wouldn't stop lecturing me about that because Cleo had to wear a wig.
I think that was the funny part about that.
You know I miss High school.
Meeting you and the guys was the best years of my life hanging out with you all doing stupid shit and partying like idiots and then college came and went.
I kinda miss middle school.
Why?
I don't know.
I guess I wish I could go back and be a kid again.
I don't know where I'd be if I never had met you.
Probably locked up in some kind of research facility getting tested on by Humans.
I want to Thank you...for everything.
For what?
For being there for me when nobody else would.
And just Being my friend in general.
I love being your friend.
Even if I'm-
Invisibilly do me a favor and don't ever be ashamed for what you like.
I know.
You tell me that all the time.
I don't care if you're gay.
You don't?
I don't.
It's completely normal.
So what you like guys.
It's better than being with a soul sucking bitch.
that'll just use you and cheat on you on the same fucking night that you're going to propose to-
Heatblast!
Sorry...I lost my temper for a sec.
It's alright.
I really am sorry she did that to you.
I just want to forget about her and hope she jumps off a bridge.
Hey Bill?
Yeah?
I feel like I should tell you a secret of mine since you told me one about you.
Oh jeez I can imagine a few things.
It's not bad.
Well thank god for that.
I probably should have told you a while ago back in high school but since we're getting things off our chest I might as well tell ya now.
I don't really like keeping secrets from you.
What is it?
Well you probably had suspicions about it back in high school but I'm Bi.
I also thought it would be fair because you told me that you were gay.
Are...are you serious?
Yeah.
I swing both ways.
I don't know if you're joking...right?
Prove it...prove to me that you're bi.
Uhh....😦
Bill how the fuck am I supposed to prove that?
I-I don't know think of something.
My obsession crush for Ryan Reynolds?
Nice try nope.
(At the time it was probably the worst thing to even say to him.
I couldn't control myself and words just fell out of my mouth)
W-Well...how about you prove to me that you really love me.
If what you're saying is true you would prove it to me.
(It just went quiet.
He looked at me and gave me a little smile)
I-I don't know if I can.
You don't mind helping me do you?
W-What?😳
Bill I-
You don't have to be afraid.
Show me.
Ex-excuse me?
You heard me.
(I was speechless.
I didn't know what else to say.
What was I supposed to say?
He got closer to my face.
I couldn't control myself like it was a reflex and I started to lean over to him.
I tried to restrain myself and get up and leave but before I could do anything he kissed me.
At first I convinced myself that this wasn't really happening.
But I got too lost in the kiss to care and I didn't realize that I was even kissing Bill.
At first I thought I was kissing someone else but when I started to feel my pants get a little tighter after he rubbed my inner thigh I opened my eyes and I freaked out realizing that this wasn't all in my head)
W-WHAT THE FUCK BILL!
I'm sorry...I-I-
W-Why the fuck would you kiss me?😧
Oh my god Heatblast I-I'm so sorry.
I-I I didn't mean to.😰
I just-
(He started crying.
I looked at him in shock.
I could feel a part of me just burn up
into flames.
Whyyyyyyyy!😫
Why did ya gotta go and ruin something so hot!
I was even getting turned on by this.
The moment you two were having was so beautiful.🥰
I even felt the tip of his tongue on our teeth.
What the fuck did I just do?
I can't believe I yelled at him.
I can't believe I even laid a hand on him.
I saw tears in his eyes and realized I had to go home now)
Holy shit Bill...I-I'm so sorry I-I didn't mean to.😰
I'm sorry I-I need to go.
I can't stay anymore.
I really have to go.
Heatblast please wait.
I can't stay I'm sorry.
I shouldn't even have laid a hand on you.
I just ...can't I'm sorry.
(He grabbed my arm as I was trying to leave and he pulled me back)
Bill I said I have to go.
(He grabbed my face and kissed me again.
I was freaking out.
I tried to resist and stop him but I failed.
I slowly started to give in to it.
At this point I had no idea what the hell I was doing.
I never kissed anyone like that before.
I didn't know why but I started to stick my tongue in his mouth and full on make out with him.
It felt weird sticking my tongue in his mouth.
He seemed pretty into it and eventually he stuck his tongue in my mouth)
~Jesus Christ.
W-What are we even doing?!
It's alright just let me take the lead.
You Don't have to worry about a thing.
I-I feel like I should worry.
This seems wrong.
(He had me up against the wall and started rubbing his knee on my crotch)
~H-Holy hell almighty.
I can already tell you're enjoying this.
N-No.
We...we really need to stop.
I'm sorry I just don't want things to go any further.
B-But I-
(I picked him up and moved him out of my way.
I was walking towards the door but my dumb ass decided to walk backwards to make sure he wouldn't try anything but I ended up falling backwards onto his bed)
Are you okay?
I-I'm fine I just-
I need-
You're getting so worked up over nothing.
I'm most certainly am not!
You're a blushing mess right now, you're smoking And you clearly have an unwanted visitor.
That's one thing to call him😒
(Hey fuck you asshole!
He got on top of me and held my arms down.
We stopped and looked at each other for a few minutes)
I'm...I'm so uncomfortable right
now...🙁
Please don't leave...I-I need you.
I'm just so alone here.
I don't want you to go.
I'm so sor-
Oh my god Quit apologizing I'm not going anywhere.
Besides you kind of got me on lockdown dick head.
Maybe that's a good thing.
I hope not because I would kinda like to go home now.
I don't know.
I just might keep ya here for a while and see how this turns out.
(Bonor engaged!
He sat on my lap and started to sway back and forth on my crotch still holding my arms down)
~S-Son of a Bitch.🤤
~Fuck me.
Really now?
F-Fuck wait don't listen to him!
You're starting to act a little crazy.
I'm not crazy.
Then why did you say don't listen to him?
I-I don't know.
Just don't listen to that.
(He got closer and started to take my shirt off and lick my neck.
He began to bite down and suck)
Jesus Christ~
Bite me harder~
(Oh my god this is just to hot.
Jeff You really need to stop.😰
Fuck no I'm having some good old fashioned fun.
Come on do you want to be a virgin forever.
If you're making me have sex with my best friend who I consider a brother then yes!
This is basically your first time having someone touch you like this.
I don't give a shit if this is my first time or my last!
You're just angry because you love the feeling of someone biting your neck.
That's not true!
Stop lying to yourself.
I couldn't help myself and I began to drag my claws down his back.
He bit down hard and the bites were more painful)
~Oh fuck...bite me Bill.
bite me till I bleed!
(He stopped to look at me for a minute and I could tell I was a blushing mess right now.
To think someone so short and skinny can make me feel so weak)
A-Are you serious??
Huh?
Serious about what?😅
You said bite me till I bleed.
Are you serious about that??
W-What?
Oh no Sorry I can't control myself sometimes.
I'm just thinking out loud.😅
You don't have to worry about it.
It's alright.
You look adorable when you're spacing out about something else.
Ya know what I wouldn't say I was spacing out but I think it's adorable when you panic when you forget where you left your Bennie.
Shut up.
(We started to make out again and I kept telling myself that you need to leave before it gets worse.
Somehow I know this is going to escalate.
I just wanted this all to end but Jeffrey kept controlling me, making me do what I was doing.
You know you don't want to stop.
He's like a brother to me.
This is really wrong.
To you it might be But he's not blood related to you.
I'm not going to do it.
You can't make me.
Come on You know you love it.
And yes I can.
I-I can't.
And I don't love it.
You can't keep lying to yourself.
I can tell you're enjoying this and there's no point in telling me otherwise.
I know all your kinks and what turns you on.
Fuck you, you sadistic fuck!
Well then I guess I have to take matters into my own hands.
You wouldn't dare.😡
It's too late now.
I have full control over your actions.
And besides you're enjoying him biting your neck.
No no you're wrong.
I'm not enjoying any of this.
It's your body not mine.
And you seem to really like what he's doing)
B-Bill stop I really should get going.
Why do you have to go?
I have to uhhh...feed my cat.
But You don't have a cat.
I left my car keys in the living room.
Do you really have to go?🥺
You hardly ever want to hang out with me anymore.
Bill...this isn't hanging out.
We're practically having sex.
We're just making out.
Why can't you stay a little longer?
I...I don't know.
A part of me wants to stay and part of me wants to go home and just stay there.
I don't know how to tell you but you wouldn't understand if I told you.
It was probably a mistake on even coming here.
I just don't want this situation to go any further.
Please don't leave.
I...I don't want to lose you.
Bill You're not gonna lose me I just want to go home.
Promise me?
(He slowly moved his hand down to my pants and grabbed my crotch.
You need to stop fighting me.😠
You're really getting on my nerves.
He's my best friend and I don't want to do this.
I just-
I just want to go home.😖
He just grabbed our crotch.
I don't care what you say or want we are getting laid tonight.
Go fuck yourself!
You're losing your virginity even if you like it or not.
And he seems like he really wants to do this.
And I really don't wanna do this.
Well I do and to bad for you.
I'm taking control now)
~B-Bill wait.
What is it?
Do you want me to stop?
N-No.
(Yes!)
Are you sure?
Yes.
(No!
Fucking stop please!)
I'm guessing someone is really excited.
Why would you say that?
Uhhh yeah no I'm sorry I-I need to go.
Why don't i help ya get rid of it.
A polite offer but I really need to go.
It's alright.
It's only me here.
My mom, brother and sisters are gone for two weeks remember?
We have the whole house to ourselves.
But I really don't want to do this.
You're like a brother to me...this feels really wrong.
I understand...it's just the way you kissed me...But Can we do it just this once and never bring it up again please.🥺
I just want you to fuck me.
You have no idea how long I wanted this to happen.
But this seems really wrong.
I just don't think that-
I promise I'll go easy on you.
(He began to pull my pants down and started to move his index finger down my chest until I let out a moan.
~S-Stop please.
Sorry but you you know how much you wanna have sex with him.
~F-Fuck no you can't make me!
But I already have heathanael.
It'll all be over soon just let me take over.
You sadistic fuck I hate you!!
Ya know it almost makes me feel sorry for you that you can't even control your own mind.
I couldn't help it I started to breathe fast.
I bit down on my bottom lip until Bill touched my V line)
I can't fucking take it anymore!
W-What?
(I grabbed him and shoved him down on the bed.
I got on top of him and I ripped his button up shirt off and pulled down his pants and threw them on the floor)
W-What the???
H-Heatblast what's gotten into you?!😰
Shut the fuck up and don't speak.
Y-You ripped my favorite shirt.
Don't worry about it.
I can just get you a new one.
(I grabbed his arm and pulled him closer to me and we continued to make out.
I grabbed his head and pulled him closer to me.
I started to rub his chest down to his  crotch still sucking on his tongue and He started to moan)
~F-Fuck Heatblast this isn't like you.
You're kinda scaring me.
You wanted me here I am.
B-But what's gotten into you all of a sudden??
You just pinned me down out of nowhere and started kissing me.
Shhh.
Don't speak.
I wanna hear your heartbeat.
(I held his arms down on the bed.
That's good let your gay thoughts take you over)
H-Heatblast...I.😨
You're really starting to scare me now.
Th-This isn't like you.
You just shoved me on my bed.
Now you're listening to my heartbeat?
I can tell you're nervous.
You're heart is beating faster and you're shaking.
(I grabbed his face and pulled him close To me)
W-what's gotten into you??
I don't know what you're talking about.
Heatblast Why are you avoiding my question?
(I grabbed his face and looked at him dead in the eye)
Say it again...Say my name.
Heatblast...Fuck me.
What's the magic word.
Please...please love me.
(I began to suck on his neck and i began to lick and I started to bite down until
My sharp teeth was in his neck while saliva was dripping down from my mouth)
~O-Oh my god.
~Jesus Christ don't stop please.
Oh?
So you are enjoying this.
Y-Yes.
You like the sharp pain when I stick my fangs in your neck.
I-
You don't need to speak.
Your face right now speaks a thousand words.
(I flipped him over and i whispered in his ear)
don't worry Bill...I'll be gentle.😈
~I-I know you will...I trust you.
Is there anything you want me to do before I fuck you?
No...do what you want to me I'm all yours.
Go as hard as you want.
I want to remember this.