I Don't Wanna Break

Rage

Niall's POV

Kennedy called about 30 minutes ago and said she found Mckenzie and right now I'm on my way to the airport to fly there. She's in Colorado.

I parking in the lot, grab my bag and rush to the plane. I'm almost late. It took a lot of shoving and and running but I finally make it.

I take my seat and stare out the window. I don't know what I'm going to do when I see her. There's so much I wanna say to her but I mainly I just want to see her. Just one more time before I say goodbye to her.

I lean my seat back and before I know it I'm asleep.

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On the slip of paper in my hand is her address and the address of her work. It's around 3 right now so she should be getting off. I park behind a black car and wait for her to come out.

When she does, the pieces of what's left of my heart burn. My chest fills with pain and tears sting my eyes. She walks out, hand in hand, with a guy. I roll down the window to hear their conversation.

They're laughing. She's laughing. Her smile lighting up her face. She leans into him and he wraps an arm around her.

"What do you wanna do?" he asks.

"We can go to your place." She smirks at him.

To his place? What exactly are that gonna do at 'his place'.

"I don't know, Lana." he says smiling.

Why is he calling her Lana? Her name is Mckenzie.

"Please Jesse. I haven't been to your place yet."

He laughs. "What are we gonna do when we get there?" he pushes her against the car.

"What ever you want." She bites her lip and he groans.

"Dammit Lana. You fucking tease."

She giggles. "I'm not teasing. Not today." Her face grows serious.

"Are you sure? I don't think I can take anymore of what you did yesterday. You got me all hot and bothered just to turn me away." He puts his hands on her waist.

She looks at him still biting her lip. I loved when she did that. She nods her head and kisses him.

I don't know what to do at first. I just sit there and watch as they kiss in front of me.

She pulls him closer to her and she moans. He grabs her thighs and pulls her legs around his waist. She giggles and kisses him again.

He makes a trail of kisses to her neck. When he reaches her sweet spot she cries out. He looks up at her and smiles.

"Who's teasing now?" he says.

"Don't push me Jesse." She says seriously.

He laughs lowly. "We'll see who's pushing who." He puts her down and smacks her bottom. "Let's go."

She glares at him and gets in the driver's seat. He walks to the passenger side with a huge smile on his face. He's in love. I can tell. I wore that that same smile when I fell in love with her.

I follow them when they drive away. All the intentions I had of seeing her and talking to her have flew out the window. I can't bring my self to. When they pull into a driveway, I park across the street.

She gets out of the car and so does Jesse. He runs over to her and picks her up bridal style. She laughs and locks her arms around his neck. She unlocks the door and they walk inside.

I sit in my car and try not to think about what they're doing right now. She never did that with me. Ever.

Pain floods my body and rage fills my senses. Instead of picturing them together, I picture me beating Jesse's skull in. I hate him. I hate her. I hate them both.

I know I can't do anything about it right now. She would never come back to me anyway. She has started over and I'm obviously not apart of her new life.

Hot tears fall down my face and I get a tight feeling in my chest.

She left to protect me but all she's doing is hurting me worse. She's turning me into a cold heartless man.

All those 'I love you's and all the kisses meant nothing to her. All the touches and the laughs are nothing to her.

I'm nothing to her.

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Awe poor Niall:"(