I Don't Wanna Break

Real

Niall's POV

She's awake.

I have to pinch myself a couple times to make sure I'm not dreaming.

Her green eyes are open wide and her heart is beating strong.

Flashback

"1...2...3...clear."
Her chest jolts up once again.

"There's a pulse." A nurse screams.

My heart continues to beat at an abnormal rate.

"Okay. One last time. 1...2...3...clear."

And with that last electric jolt, her eyes are open and she's sitting up in bed.

Flashback over

Now we sit here together in silence. Fingers laced together. Eyes locked on each other's. Every moment seems even more precious.

"Niall." she speaks, her voice raw and hoarse.

"Yes, love."

"I didn't want to live." She says quietly.

My stomach drops to the floor. "What are you saying?"

"You know what I'm saying." she blinks slowly and unravels her hand from mine.

"No. Babe. No. You can't...you can't leave...not after everything we've done...everything we've been through."

She shakes her head. "You don't understand. I was happy. For once I was happy."

That one statement turns my blood ice cold and suddenly I'm not the same.

"You were happy."

She nods.

"Mckenzie. You almost died giving birth to our child. Does that baby not mean anything to you? I though you were happy with me. Were you lying? Was this all just another game to you?"

Her eyes get big and I can feel my hands clench into fists.

"No, Niall. That's not what I'm saying."

I laugh softly.

"You're joking right. That's not what you were saying." She shakes her head.

"Oh well then please explain, because I obviously do not understand."

She sighs. "We are no good for each other and I tried to make you realize this from the beginning. I faked my own death to get away from. I changed my identity. I moved away. But no! You still came after me. You still found ways to ruin my life. You beat me, nearly raped me, kidnapped me, you ruined my career. You destroyed everything."

She begins to cry now. "I tried to make you realize how bad I was for you. I tried to stay away. All those times I attempted to kill myself, those were because of you. I wanted to get away from you."

I sink back into my chair.

None of this makes any sense. None of it.

"Then why did you have sex with me? Why did have this child?"

"Because I knew I would die and I didn't know how you'd react when that happened, so I wanted you to have her. So you wouldn't be alone."

The gears continue to turn and click around in my head. Parts come together, until finally everything is clear to me.

"I should have let you die." I say quietly.

"You are nothing but a manipulative whore and a waste of my time. I should've seen this from the start."

Anger overflows from inside me and it's reaching the point where I will no longer have control of the things I say.

"I would kill you right now, but I think it would be better for me to let you know that, that child in there is going live her life without me or you."

Tears fall like waterfalls from her eyes.

"Niall no. You have to be there for her."

"I don't have to do shit!" I scream.

It's funny things changed so quickly. First we were just there looking at each other, just being glad to be there. Now, here we are at each other's throats, throwing around threats like it nothing. But then that's what I was to her. Nothing.

"You did this yourself Mckenzie." I say as I walk to the door.

"Fuck you, Niall!" She screams at me.

I laugh loudly.

"Been there, done that. That's how we got here, remember."

Just before I shut the door I hear her scream my name once more but I ignore it.

I know I've told myself a million times but this time I'm not changing my mind.

I am done with Mckenzie Adams.

I am done with Lana Reed.
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Sooooo that happened....

I had planned out a different chapter but changed my mind. I don't think you guys are quite ready for what I had in mind anyway.

So comment your thoughts on this chapter and vote:)

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Xoxo- <3 Jojo