my babygirl → jack gilinsky

chapter twenty four ♡

lillian ♡

i was dressed in a cute casual outfit that, zoey picked out for me.

she also did my makeup because she wanted our "first" date to be perfect.

after she finished, she turned me around in the chair.

"you look incredible!" she exclaimed.

"thanks" i smiled lightly and reached for my phone so i could see what i looked like.

"let's take a picture" she smiled, i put the camera in front of us, we both smiled.

she took the phone right after, and captioned it.

#firstdate #thankszoey #shedidmymakeup #shepickedmyoutfit

"okay now go have fun on your date!" she exclaimed

"okayy" i smiled and walked out the room, i walked downstairs and saw jack waiting for me on the couch.

he smiled once he saw me. he stood up and came over to me.

"you.. you look beautiful" he smiled at me.

i blushed.

"thank you" i smiled at him. "you look nice as well" i commented.

he smiled at me, "let's go" he said and grabbed my hand bringing me out to his car.

we got inside, after he opened the door for me. he played the usual stations he usually listens to on the way.

i didn't know where we were going but i was okay with that.

soon we arrived at a small diner, then i relaxed which diner it was. the one we came to the day we met.

we ran into each other on the boardwalk then we walked here. it was a few miles from the beach where we met though.

i smiled, i haven't been here in forever.

he looked at me, "is this alright?"

alright?

"it's great" i smiled back and stepped out the car. he grabbed my hand.

"i wanted to make this special" he said.

"it is special, i love this jack" i smiled up at him.

"i'm so glad" he said back and we walked inside and sat down.

"so, how long is the tour?" i asked out of curiosity.

he sighed. "let's not talk about this now, lily." he said.

i sighed too. "why not?"

"because i don't want to think about it, i want to think about us, and this date, not about the tour" he said.

"fine" i said and picked up a menu, looking through it.

if we were just bestfriends, he would've told me. no screw that, either way he would've told me unless he doesn't want to, unless there's something more.

i looked up at him, he was trying so hard not to think about it, i can tell.

this tour must be longer than eleven months. i just know it is.

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"i think we should talk" i said plopping myself onto the couch next to my amazingly cute boyfriend.

he looked at me. "are you already breaking up with me?" he joked with a playful smile to which i returned.

"how long?" i asked again for the millionth time about the tour but he just won't tell me.

i just want to brace myself.

"don't worry about it lily. please" he said.

"i just want to know" i said looking at him.

"lily, you don't need to know okay"

"but jack, i do need to know because i need to know how long you'll be gone so i can brace and prepare myself" i said a little louder.

"you don't nee-"

"jack, last time, i almost killed myself-" i stopped myself realizing what i had just said because nobody knew that.

besides zoey, my dad and my brother.

i didn't tell anyone else, they only knew because they were the ones there, zoey found me and got my brother and he got my dad.

i sat back and stared ahead.

he didn't say anything, he just looked ahead too.

"pl-" he started to say but stopped himself.

i stood up and went to walk to the stairs.

"where are you going?" jack sighed.

"i want to be alone right now" i mumbled.

"no lily" he stood up and grabbed my hand but i pulled away.

"no, no jack. you weren't suppose to know so don't act like you care" i mumbled the last part and walked up the stairs.

i walked in my room and sat against the door with my knees to my chest.

i may have just ruined absolutely everything.

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