my babygirl → jack gilinsky

chapter thirty ♡

lily ♡

"read it" he said handing it to me.

i unfolded it and took out the paper.

and read the letter.

dear, lily,
  hi, it's me, your bestfriend obviously, jack. i just wanted to say that i'm so thankful for everything, for you.
you've been here for me since we were thirteen, you were there when i thought the world was going to end, i'll never be able to thank you enough for being my person. i love you, and i don't know if you'll even ever find this but i wanted to say this to you but i was scared you'd feel differently but ever since eleventh grade when peter kissed you in the cafeteria, i wanted to kiss you, because i think i may love you, i don't know what love feels like but if i'd have to guess then i'd guess it's this. so yeah, i love you and i don't want to leave for eleven months. that's such a long time and away from you. it kind of scares me, i mean who's going to wake me up now? anyways my hand hurts now. call me if you find this, i want to talk to you. i'm always here for you. i love you lillian rose jacobs.
   sincerely,
      your favorite bestfriend, jack

i was smiling so much because i didn't know he felt this way then. it was so cute.

i looked at him and smiled. "this is so cute"

he smiled back.

"it took me a few days to find the right words" he said.

"i love it" i smiled and kissed him.

"i'm glad." he smiled.

i payed there on him, i grabbed the blanket from the cabinet we had in here and i put it over us.

we had a small window on the roof that let us see the stars.

we'd lay here and look at the stars sometimes.

we just laid here and looked at the stars until i was sleeping on him.

the best way to fall asleep.

i can tell you one thing, that when he leaves, i'm going to miss him so much, and another thing, i'm so in love with him and don't want to be in love with anyone else.

i don't understand how i could love another boy more than jack.

jack has changed my life and i love it.

i felt him kiss my head once more before i fell into a deep sleep.

i woke up, to someone carrying me.

jack. i didn't open my eyes, he set me down on a bed. my bed. i felt him put a blanket over me.

i could feel movement still.

i felt him kiss my head, softly, and whisper, "goodnight, lily. i love you."

i wanted to smile but instead, i heard the door shut a few seconds later and i fell back asleep, thinking about jack all over again.

how could i not think about him?