my babygirl → jack gilinsky

chapter fifty two ♡

i was sitting on these very uncomfortable chairs just waiting for something, anything for my dad and praying countless times to god that my dad doesn't die because i need him here with me.

i can't lose him too. he's all i have left.

i was laying in my boyfriends arms, i wanted him here with me the whole time.

every time, i see a doctor walk in the waiting room, i hope and pray they say something about my dad.

but for every doctor or nurse that's came in for the past six hours had nothing about my dad.

then another one came but not for us.

you know what, i'm gonna just ask.

i stood up.

"babe, what are you doing?" jack asked but i ignored him and walked over to her.

"excuse me" i said with my tear stained face.

"yes, can i help you?" she asked.

"can't you tell me something please? for my dad" i asked her.

"what's his name?" she asked and i gave her his name.

she flipped through her clip board.

"ah yes." she said finding a page.

she looked at it, with some expression i couldn't quite read and she looked back up at me with a face that suggested something was wrong.

"wha-what is it?" i asked her.

"i'm sorry dear, but we don't know anything for certain" she spoke.

"just tell me something, he's my dad and i already lost my mom and i don't wanna lose him too, so please don't do this to us, to my brother. we just wanna know if he's alive, if he's okay. just tell me something, please" i said, tears rolling down my face.

jack now by my side.

"your dad had a heart attack and his heart keeps failing and we are trying to do everything we can to save him okay, he's doing okay." she said.

"thank you" i whispered but turned and cried more into jack.

"it's okay" he whispered as he rubbed my back.

i hated this so much.

"did she tell you anything?" bryan came.

i couldn't talk right now.

"he had a heart attack and his heart keeps failing." jack said for me.

his face dropped at that, as did mine.

"lily, will you come with me?" he asked, i nodded and we walked outside together and went to the end of the parking lot and sat down on the curb.

we sat there in silence for awhile.

"do you think he'll make it?" he asked.

"i hope so" i whispered.

"what was he doing out there?" brian asked more to himself.

"what do you mean.. out there?" i asked.

"when i found him, he was shooting guns in the woods, but i don't know why. i don't understand" he said.

"was he bleeding when you found him?" i asked.

"yeah, in his head, i think" he whispered.

"oh my god" i mumbled.

"are any of you bryan or lillian?" a lady said from behind.

we both stood.

"yes, both of us" brian said.

"your dad, we have news" she started and we listened.

"he had a heart attack when he fell after the gun shot, to us, it looked like a purposely gun shot to the head, but if you'd like to see him, you are more than welcome too" she explained.

"he shot himself?" brian asked.

"i'm sorry" the lady said and walked back inside.

"were we not good enough?" i asked my brother.

"i don't know"

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