'Money'

Chapter 54 - Money's big mouth

- What, baby? I ask.
- I'm unsure if i want this new baby, Money says.
- Do you or dont you want the new baby that's cooking in my belly? I ask. If not its almost too late for me to have an abortion, and since i already started a medical one that i didnt go through with, it might damage me to do it again, make up your mind, Jacob.

Jacob stays silent for a few minutes while making up his mind, he might lose both me and his new baby daughter if he says he doesn't want the baby.

- I want the baby, Money says and tries to hug me but i step away from him.

- You don't want the baby, i say. I see it written all over you, you don't want any more kids.

- Jackie...i do, i do want the baby, Jacob says, not very convincing.

- Make up your mind, Jacob or you just might lose me for good, i say.

- I dont wanna lose you again, baby, Jacob says.

- I'll sleep in my office tonight so you can make up your mind, tell me what you choose tomorrow at breakfast, i say and go to feed Sarah again before i go to pick up my pillows and cover and bring them with me to my office.

Well, we're getting rather used to this, aren't we, i think to myself as i shut my office door right in front of Money, he stands there looking like a lost puppy before he picks up his daughter and take her with him in to the bedroom.

Oh well, he thinks to himself, if i cant cuddle mommy, at least i could cuddle my infant daughter til we both sleep. He puts Sarah down on the bed, on my side, before he changes in to thin sweatpants and gets in to bed and cuddles Sarah til they both sleep.

The next day at breakfast i refuse to even look at Money, i'm still angry with him.

- Baby, he tries.

- What do you want? i ask him, like he was less than air to me.

- Can we talk about yesterday? Please...? Money says.

- Then talk, i say.

- I had lots of time to think last night, Jacob says.

- Did you come up with anything? i ask sarcastically.

- I did, actually, Jacob says.

- What? I ask.

- Two things, one...i want you to keep the baby, Jacob says.

- Okey, and the other thing? i ask.