Luke
She left.
She already left.
I don't understand why she would.
Yeah, I told her it's fine and I understand and she made the right decision but why am I feeling this way?
The moment she left for a week, it felt like a year without her. She wasn't beside me. When she told me to stop getting near her, it was really heart breaking. It shattered me into pieces when she said those words.
And now that she will never come back, breaks me deep inside. It broke my heart, my soul. It broke me. I'm torn in two right now.
I should have told her that I don't like her to leave. I shouldn't let her go.
When she messaged me on Facebook, I don't know what to say. They all congratulated her and wished her luck but I didn't. It was silly of me to congratulate her or wish her luck because I don't want her there though.
I want to tell her to come back here. I want to kiss her and hug her and tell her how much I love her.
She's 99.9% of me. She was there for me whenever I needed her.
Last two years, was when I realized that I love her. I want to tell her that time that I do but I can't. I was afraid that she will reject me. She was always talking about this guy, Robin, everytime. But she told me she doesn't like him. It was a relief though. I was about to tell her that I love her when I met Alyssa. Last summer, we had fun hanging out together and doing random stuffs like I do with Danielle. So that's when I decided to court Alyssa. When Danielle knew my relationship with Alyssa, I didn't know that she will react like that. I didn't know that she loves me.
I made the wrong decision to court Alyssa. I wasn't ready to love someone. I wasn't ready to unlove Danielle Anderson.
I didn't went to school today. My head is throbbing from breaking down for almost 24 hours yesterday. I haven't slept yet.
Dad is worried about me especially my mum. Alyssa kept on calling me but I don't like to answer it so I turned my phone off.
Laying on the bed is the best thing to do at this situation. In times like this, Danielle was always there to comfort me. But now that she's gone, I will never be okay.
I looked at the corner and saw my guitar. I gathered all my strength to stand up and get it. I went back to my bed and started strumming it, playing the song I composed for her.
"For a while we pretended that we never had to end it,"
I stopped and wiped the tears that started falling down my cheeks. I dropped my guitar and laid back on my bed.
Everything in this room is a memory of her. All of me is her. She completes me. And without her, I am nothing.
"Luke?" I heard mum's voice and checked the time.
4:45 pm
"You may enter," I said weakly.
The door creaked open and I felt her sitting beside me.
"Have you slept already?" she asked me.
"No," I whispered.
"Luke you have to take care of yourself." she said, her tone worried.
"I am trying to mum." I told her honestly.
"Luke, be positive. Danielle will come back. Nothing will happen if you just lay there and cry all day though." she told me and I woke up from reality. "Do you think she'll be happy to see you this way?" she asked me.
