It's been a months since I made a decision to stop whatever Luke and I are doing.
He's with Alyssa now and I can't help stare at how happy they are. Showing so much affection to each other, holding hands while walking, kissing each other. Madi and Calum are doing the same.
Why am I always in a group of lovers? Are they making jealous?
"Is there a problem?" I heard Ashton asked from behind me and I went back to reality.
"Nothing." I smiled at him and he just nodded.
Mike is not here. He's doing something to help Elisha with her project. He doesn't like to but Elisha insisted and pushed it. So here I am, sitting awkwardly with two couples and the boy who likes me that I only treat as my friend.
"Are you sure you're okay?" Ashton asked me again.
"Yeah," I muttered to him.
"Do you want to go somewhere?" he asks.
"Of course. Let's go?" I asked him and stood up. He did the same and we walked away, not telling the couples where we are going. Well I don't even know where we are going.
"Where do you wanna go?" he asked when we were out of the canteen already.
"I don't know. Just far away from there. I don't want to see couples at the moment." I sighed and he nodded.
We reached a peaceful place - few students, no couples, just fresh air and trees and benches - we sat on one of the bench under the shady tree.
We stayed there in silent, the calm air soothing my feeling making me feel comfortable and free.
I closed my eyes and breathed the air then when I noticed someone's lips brushing mine. I opened my eyes and saw Ashton leaning to his side.
"I'm sorry Danielle I-" I cut him mid sentence by standing up from the bench.
"No no no it's okay. I'm leaving." I told him and ran away.
I went to the girls restroom and went inside one of the cubicles.
"Fuck," I whispered.
Then there was tears staining my cheeks. I wiped them but they weren't go away.
"What the fuck?" I breathed.
I tugged my hair and sat down on the toilet to let out the tears. Why am I even crying?
Duh, these lips aren't virgin anymore. Mike kissed me, Luke kissed me, and now it's Ashton who kissed me. Why are these tears falling down my cheeks?
The bell rang and I wiped the tears. I exhaled before going out and tied my hair.
When I went out of the cubicle, I looked at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes are red, telling that I was crying. What should I do with these eyes? They'll notice this.
"Hi Danielle," someone greeted behind me.
"Hey," I muttered.
"Aren't you going to your room?" she asked.
"Oh I'm going I'm just uh, looking at myself?" I tokd her.
"Oh okay. See you." she said and waved me goodbye. I smiled at her and went out of the restroom.
As I made my way to my room, I accidentally bumped into Calum and Madison.
"Danielle where have you been?" Calum asked.
"In the restroom." I told him, my head facing the floor.
"Is there a problem?" Madi asked me.
"No, I am going." I said and walked away.
