"It's okay. You'll be fine." Michael said, his hands moving up and down on my back.
"It hurts. It sucks that it hurts." I sobbed.
"I know." he said. His hands still moving on my back.
"I shouldn't feel this. But I can't help it." I sobbed again.
"Shshsh..." He said and wrapped his arms around me.
I don't know but I feel comfortable in his arms. Maybe this is what I need right now, company.
I pulled away from him and wiped my tears.
"I'm sorry." I told him.
"Why?" he asked. His face looks so worried.
"For letting you see me this way." I explained.
"Don't be." he smiled.
"Wait, you know.." oh god. "You know what I feel for Luke?" I asked him and he smiled.
"Yeah, ever since the first day. I caught you looking at him and then whenever you see Luke is with Allyssa you always frown." he said.
"Thanks." I told him.
"For what again?" he asked me.
"For not telling anyone about it." I forced to smile at him but I can't.
"It's fine." he smiled. I don't know why it's hurting so much. I like him. I only like him.
But the truth is that I love him...
"I don't think Luke is still going to walk with you home."
"What? Why?" how could he?
"He took Allyssa home." he explained.
Wow. Finally, they are out about their relationship. Wow. Just, wow.
"I can take you home." he said and flushed, embarrassed that he offered to take me home.
"If you want to. If you only want to. But if you don't like, I won't." he added.
"Sure. Thank you." I agreed.
We started walking and I can't help but think about what Allyssa told me.
Luke and her. Allyssa and him.
How could Luke not notice my feelings for him? Because he only treats me as his bestfriend? I know he will tell everything to me but Allyssa insisted not to.
Shitty ass girl. I thought.
"Hey, is this your house?" he asked and pointed to our home.
"Yeah," I told him and opened the- what the hell?
"Why the hell is this house locked? Out of all times!" I shouted.
Why the hell did I forgot to bring my keys?
"Where are you going to stay now?" he asked me, looking concerned.
"I don't know. I can't stay at Luke's because I don't want to see him right now." I sighed and looked down.
"You can stay at my house. Only if you want. I can teach you guitar if you want to." he said and I nodded.
Every step that I take with Michael, every minute that I walk, every second of every minute, I still feel the sting inside my chest. Tears always ready to fall but I keep holding them back. Knees ready to fall but I keep standing up. I don't want to feel this anymore. When will the pain go away? When will my feelings for him fade? When will I be happy about them? When will I accept everything?
