Tears Of An Angel

Chapter 26

Chapter 26: "The heart replays what the heart can't delete."

"Ya, busog na po ako," naglalambing na sabi ko.

Yaya had prepared a lot of food for me. My parents called every day to check on me and remind me to eat only healthy food. Actually, they asked me to go back so that they could personally monitor my health, but I told them that I was doing fine, nothing to worry about.

"Ubusin mo muna iyang gatas mo bago ka umalis," sabi niya sa hindi mababaling tinig.

"Opo."

"Samahan na kaya kita, nak? Ang kabilin-bilinan sa akin ng mama mo lagi kitang samahan eh."

"Ya, maiinip ka lang doon. Saka saglit lang naman ako sa rehearsal ng kasal ni Mikey."

"Chela, iwasan mong mapagod ha? Tawagan mo rin si mam at sir. Magpaalam ka muna sa kanila."

"Natawagan ko na po sila. Okay na, ya, pumayag na silang umalis ako na hindi ka kasama. Don't worry about me. I'm a big girl with a new, healthy heart," I said with a smile.

Ang gusto nina Mikey ay sunduin ako pero tumanggi ako dahil ayokong makaabala sa kanila. Nag-grab na lang ako papunta sa church.

"Best!"

I smiled and waved at Mikey. The coordinator briefed us what to do. Since I was the maid of honor, ako ang unang maglalakad pagkatapos ng mga bata.

"Girls, just walk down the aisle slowly, imagine that you're the bride. Walk beautifully and gracefully," said the coordinator.

"Pero syempre hanggang imagination lang kayo kasi ako pa rin yung bride ha!" Mikey said jokingly. "Baka hilahin niyo sa altar ang groom ko!"

I laughed but instantly turned serious, when I was given the cue to walk down the aisle. The coordinator told us to imagine that we were the bride, but I think even without her saying that, I would still do so.

"Bibigyan ko kayo ng music para ma-feel niyo ang paglalakad!" biro pa nito.

I closed my eyes and imagined that it was my wedding day, that it was Vince who was waiting at the altar. Ang sarap pala sa pakiramdam kahit alam ko na gawa lamang iyon ng imahinasyon ko. It felt so good I wanted to cry and beg for it to be real.

I took a deep breath, opened my eyes, and walked gracefully. At least, I got the chance to walk down the aisle even if I wasn't the bride. A borrowed moment.

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love
When I'm afraid to fall

Was he really standing there at the altar? Or it was just my imagination doing an excellent job. My lips parted as our eyes met. No, he couldn't be real.. or could he?

But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away
Somehow
One step closer..

I have died every day
Waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid
I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

"Shirley, tell Bob I need to talk to him about the Hermosa file. It's urgent," I told my secretary through the intercom.