Tears Of An Angel

Chapter 9

Chapter 9: Is it really over

So this was how it felt like to be left behind by the person you love so much. The pain was excruciating. It felt like you were being tortured. It was shattering. The loneliness didn't make it any easier either. In fact, it made it even harder to bear. It's like there was a gaping hole in my chest. 

Pain and loneliness. Terrible companion.. but it was more terrible when bitterness joined the gang. Have I forgotten to mention numbness? What a miserable party! Yes, being in love is probably the best feeling in the world. However, when that love ends? It's the worst feeling ever. And that's what I'm feeling now.

"Ibabalik mo pa ang mga ibinigay niya sayo?" Mikey asked.

"I want to," I said above whisper. "Sinabi ko yun sa kanya pero ayaw niya."

I sent him a message saying that I wanted to return every thing that he gave me, but he only said 'no'. 

"Tama lang naman kasi na wag mong ibalik no."

"But if I want to move on, then I don't need any reminder." Then I held the necklace. "Like this one." 

I swallowed the lump in my throat. God knows how many times I've tried to throw this necklace, but I couldn't. It felt like throwing a part of me.

"Baka mainsulto siya kapag isinoli mo yung mga bigay niya sa'yo."

I sighed. "Nailagay ko na lahat sa box lahat. Pwera lang ito. Ibabalik ko lahat ng ibinigay niya."

"Best, tapos na ba talaga? Baka naman may chance pa na magkabalikan kayo."

"He's already ended it," I said teary eyed again.

"But he was only asking for space. Ikaw ang tumapos. Sana naghintay ka, best."

"Best, I waited for him. I can't wait anymore."

She sighed and held my hand. "Ang tagal mo siyang hinintay. Basta mo na lang ba siya igi-give up?" 

A tear fell from my eye. I wiped it. "He didn't give me a chance." 

"Nakakainis. Hindi dapat ganito ang ending ng story niyo. This is not right."

"Maybe we're not meant to have a happy ever after. Baka hanggang once upon a time lang yung sa min." Nagulat pa ko ng mapaiyak si Mikey. "Why are you crying?"

"Because you don't deserve this pain. This kind of ending. You deserve to be happy."

I smiled and wiped my tears. "Para naman tayong timang. Nag-iiyakan tayo. Buti na lang walang masyadong students dito." 

Natawa siya. At saka kami nagyakapang dalawa. Pinigilan ko na ang maiyak pa. Alam kong naaapektuhan din ang mga tao sa paligid ko. I can't be selfish.

Finally, it's our sembreak. Lagi akong inaayang mamasyal ni Mikey para di ko na isipin si Vince. Like now, nanood kami ng movie. When I got home, I was surprised with my mother's news. 

"Uuwi po sina ninang?" Pakiramdam ko ay tumigil sa pag-ikot ang mundo ko sa narinig. He's coming back!

Nakangiting tumango siya. "Yes, baby. Buong pamilya niya ang magbabakasyon dito sa pilipinas. I'm sure you're excited to see your boyfriend." 

I forced myself to smile. I haven't told her that Vince and I are no longer together. I didn't know how to tell her that without breaking apart. 

"K-kailan po sila darating?"