I can't sleep
I can never sleep
I get lost in my thoughts
I lay in my bed trying to fall asleep before I fall apart
My heart is so tired
So I let it sleep
But there is sadness is my dreams as well
All the butterflies that once reached my heart are at the bottom of my stomach
They lie dead with their wings ripped from their backs
There is no helping a eccedentesiast person like I
So let my heart slumber
And let me live in my constant state of dysania
You broke your rules for me
All I did was break your heart
I made you a promise
And I broke it
I loved you
Well I thought I did
Maybe I loved the idea of you
Maybe I just loved not being alone
Or maybe I just loved being loved
Pretty fucked up
I know
I told you that I was from the beginning
There was a lot of reasons to stay
And a lot reasons to leave
But I chose to give up on you
Us
I'm so exhausted from trying to be strong enough to hold up my feelings for everyone
Even myself
So, I'm done
I'm done with forever
I mean there's no forever
If you never have an over
Forever
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A Spark Of Hope
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