Your flawless in my eyes ( matthew espinosa fanfic)

Chapter 24 - Zombies

Matthew's POV

That night when I got home i went upstairs to my room. I just laid in my bed for hours before I went to sleep, i listened to music. I cried a little for the first time in years that night. I started thinking about all the good times we had together. When we went ice skating, when we kissed in the snow, Christmas Eve, our anniversary, the day we made out at her house. I even went way back to the first day i saw her this year, we were on the bus and i protected her from that dick Kevin. He was making her uncomfortable and i heard her scream, i turned around and saw her beautiful face, terrified. I lost all control and knocked him down. Then i thought back to present time and realized that tonight was one of the worst nights of my life, the night abbey broke my heart.

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The next morning i woke up late, it was like 10 o'clock when I woke up. It was Saturday and i had nothing to do. I got out of bed and got in the shower, i was still wearing the clothes from yesterday and i felt gross. After I got out of the shower i got dressed, i put on black sweats and just a plain blue tank top. And over that i put on a red hoodie. I didn't even bother to brush my hair, but I did brush my teeth.

I went downstairs and ate some breakfast. After that I went up to my room to watch a movie, i didn't even bother telling my family good morning. I didn't want to talk to anyone really, i just needed some time alone. I took my hoodie off and I lay down, putting on some stupid movie. I wasn't really watching it just zoning out, i felt like a zombie, showingno emotion and just laying there motionless.

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At about noon i was still watching the movie, when my phone beeped. I knew who it was right away from the special ringtone i set for her. I opened up the text,

Matthew im so sorry for what happened last night. i love you and i was too drunk to remember my love for you. 😢💔

I didn't want to respond, so i just read it and set my phone down. A few minutes later i got another text from abbey,

http://youtu.be/7qzhngp7jh8

Just watch this video. its how i think you are feeling.

I decided to click on the link. It took me to youtube and it took a second to load, but it was a music video. I watched it and she was right, it was describing exactly how i felt. Just the first verse and chorus were my life,

We didn't care if people stared

We'd make out in a crowd somewhere

Somebody'd tell us to get a room

It's hard to believe that was me and you

Now we keep saying that we're okay

But I don't want to settle for good, not great

I miss the way that it felt back then

I wanna feel that way again

Been so long, bet you forget

The way I used to kiss your neck

Remind me, remind me

So on fire, so in love

Way back when we couldn't get enough

Remind me, remind me

After I watched it i set my phone back down on my bedside table. i sat up to stretch my back when i heard a knock on my door. I wiped the tears for my face and said ,"Who is it?"

I heard a loving voice say back, "your mother."

"Ok come in," i said as i leaned back on my headboard.

My mom walked in the room and sat down on my bed next to me. She had a plate with her, i guess it had my lunch on it. "Whats wrong sweetie i haven't seen you all day."

And so i told her everything. I told her about how abbey kissed Nash and everything else. She didn't say anything, she just sat there and held my hand. After a while she got up and said ,"I'll let you have some alone time to sort this out." She kissed my forehead and left the room. She even remembered to close the door this time, i laughed to myself, that's a first.

I continued to watch the movie and ate my lunch. I stayed in my room the whole day watching t.v. and being a depressed zombie. But then i remembered zombies can't feel emotion and pain.... Lucky bastards.