My Adventure Is A Boy Named Kota.

Chapter 36 - Green Eyes and A good Kind of pain.

The short walk back to my house was silent as was the walk into my house and upstairs to my bedroom.

As I went to sit on my bed, Kota nervously stood at my door not knowing what to do.

"You can come in." I say "I'm not going to hit you again."

"I wouldn't blame you if you did." He replies going to sit at my desk chair and pulling it so he's sitting in front of me.

I could see him nervously tapping his leg and rubbing the back of his neck with his hand. Although I wanted to tell him that whatever he said I would most likely forgive him but I knew that that was stupid. I had to hear the whole story.

"I umm. I had a whole speech prepared but, it all seems kind of dumb now. I just-" He begins but its obvious he's terrified of what to say. "This last week, I can't even tell you how fucking awful it was."

"Kota-" I begin.

"You want the truth Finn. And I'm going to give it to you. The whole truth." He says me making me frown.

"If I'm honest I don't even remember most of those first words you said to me. I couldn't think straight. You were standing there in front of me and all I could hear was that Coldplay song playing in the back of my mind." He smiled reminiscing "I think you should know, That green eyes, You're the one that I wanted to find."

"Your face, it was as if my life had just begun and your face was the first I saw. In that moment all I could see was you. You looked so strong like you felt like you could take on anything in the world, and you made me feel it too. It was the beginning of something. And then just like that, as soon as you had arrived you vanished. Leif and Corey told me who you were and about the Ban. It didn't seem right when I heard about it so I just assumed you already knew. And then that afternoon after gym we were all in the locker room." He paused to take a shaky breath.

"The boys were being boys, talking about who they bagged the previous night and who was next. One of them mentioned your name and Peter snapped. I think he really liked you, a few of them did. I mean who could blame them."

"Flattery won't get you anywhere." I reply.

"Right." He smirked at me. "Umm and they were coming up with ideas on how to lift the ban. When I stupidly spoke up and said that the only way was to show that they were actually decent guys. To take you on dates and to talk to you. As soon as I said it I regretted it. Because I knew that those assholes would only pretend to care about you until they got what they wanted. They asked for who would take one for the team and Peter immediately said he would. And so did I." He paused.

"I didn't know what else to do. I didn't want Peter to date you I didn't want anyone too. I had hardly even spoken to you and I was already agreeing to some bet to protect you. I didn't even think about what I would do, I just acted. We settled it over an arm wrestle which I won. And that was it, that's how it happened Finn I swear to god. Thats the whole story." He said looking up at me to gauge my reaction.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I ask quietly after a moment of silence.

"And risk losing you?" He asks quizzically.

"Finn, I knew something was different when we met, but I just thought I enjoyed being around you. I was scared, I have never felt this way about anyone before. You're it for me Finn, You're everything"

I looked at him. What Nicole said was right and I was the same.

I had so much emotion for him it scared me, but in the same sense it didn't. I was here, and so was he, nothing else mattered in that moment.