The One He's Not

Twins & Changed Man

Twins & Changed Man

KAT

When I felt the cold grass beneath my finger tips, I wanted to curse. I really wanted to jump up and scream my lungs out.

It all became worse when I opened my eyes. I saw the old abandoned house and the ocean of grass and the blinding sun and the dirt road beside the oak tree. I could also see my own tears.

"My God, why did I end up here again!" My voice echoed, but all I got was the sound of the whispering wind. I mean, to say that I was pissed would have been an understatement.

You'd think after I just witnessed Noel die in my arms, the universe or the ancient master of dreams would have given me a break. I barely remembered collapsing into unconsciousness and I still couldn't believe that this was all actually happening to me.

I started to pace back and forth. Why was I back here? Noel was gone and now... He isn't going to be here to vanish on me.

I choked a sob and felt my hands starting to shake. He was gone... My new life was gone and here I was, reliving the dream that (despite it being God awful and haunting) I secretly wished to be true. Well, the good parts I mean.

No more Noel kisses, no more name calling. Gingy...

I sobbed something ugly and placed my hand on the only thing that he had left. I never would have thought that I would have to explain to an organism where their other half of DNA came from. To my little baby X, I was the only thing that they got now...

My head shot up quickly. Maybe not...

I mean, this was all so sudden. All of this, Noel's brutal end and me ending up here, was some sick dream or hallucination. I could easily get past this... Any moment, I could wake up and be in my own bed where Noel would be snoring half naked and I could hear Dean and Aubrey arguing from the next house over. I would get out of bed, stretch my legs and go to leave before Noel pulled me back to bed, kissing my neck and mumbling that he loved me while playing with the dear necklace that he had given me all of those days ago...

"Wake up, wake up, wake up!" My hands smacked my skull, hoping to trigger some parallel dimension episode, but instead, all I got was a throbbing pain.

I started to hear Noel's chuckles inside of my head, therefore making me hit my skull harder. I needed to knock the 'Noel' out of me or else I was going to lose my mind. That's if I hadn't lost it already.

My mouth got the best of me and soon, I was screeching curse words across the field towards the abandoned house. A foul mouth that I didn't know that I had suddenly had taken over and soon, my flailing limbs got involved with my tantrum. I jumped up and down, ran to the oak tree and punched it and even gave the trunk a good old kick. Noel's laughs were still clear as day, but luckily, my loud banter made them go to a low volume in my mind.

"Gingy, you probably don't want to hit your skull too hard. It's not that thick and well, I would hate for you to hurt yourself. Again."

I froze mid-tantrum and squeezed my eyes shut while quietly whispering a silent prayer. Please don't be here, please, you'll make it worse, please...

"What are you doing?"

I shake my head numbly, gulping back a sob. "You're gone. You can't be here anymore. You said that you wouldn't leave me, you asshole."

My voice was cold, but my new company didn't seem to care. "You know, you can just look at my, Gingy. I don't-"

When the voice said 'Gingy' for the second time, I fell over the edge. My arm came up blindly and before I knew it, my fist was inches from my company's face, but before my knuckles could make contact, my arm stopped. His grip was strong around my wrist and even though I wanted to, I couldn't bare myself to pull away.