Tbh I don't know what the fuck to say anymore. Everyone is so narcissistic nowadays. My peers are all so concerned about themselves, like how do you think I've been doing lately?
Great? Happy? Nope, still suicidal.
And you know what?
There's NOTHING I can do about that, and sometimes, that's the way shit is.
Everyone in my fucking life has given up on me; even my mother.
She told me today, that I have no friends because I never socialize. It's rare for us to disagree because we have such an inseparable bond.
But I don't blame her.
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I was looking at a scale of the earth compared to the sun, compared to larger starts and all that other shit, in science the other day.
This unit gets me thinking- it really would be no problem at all if I were to just, die.
Right here,
right now.
Would people be effected, some, yes.
But I never mean to make people feel like shit. That just seems to be all I can do nowadays.
I don't mean to be antisocial and ignore everyone. Often times it's because I don't know what to say. And then they don't come back; so I leave.
THEN people will get mad at me for being a "shit" person, so I just let them be.
I love all my friends so insanely much. And I never want to fucking fight with them.
I'm sorry for being shitty, and I'll try my hardest to not be shitty I'm just really fUCKING sorry.
Thank you for coming to my fucking
Ted Talk.
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