Update: he raped me😍 reading this all back is so fucking cringy cus little did i know that what he was doing wasn't love. it wasn't horny teenage boy. it was assault. :)
I still love him. Very much. It's been like, a week. But Jesus fucking Christ he's so fucking amazing can I please be with him 24 fucking 7. Like how can someone be so beautifully indescribable. I kinda got grounded because my parents found out that we're dating and I'm not allowed to date until my treatment is over but IDGAF I LOVE MY BABY! Oof. Got kinda intense there. Anyways. Since I'm grounded, I can't see him outside of school which sucks dick (like me soon dksjsj jkjkjk!!!) but I guess I'll deal. *sad Sharon hours* Like it very hard to hookup with someone when you go to a small ass private school with cameras fucking everyone AND he can't go out for lunch because our principals a meanie weanie;(. UGH but in two weeks things should go back to normal? Hopefully? I don't know? My parents are strict? Jesus please be on my side for this one and I promise I'll wait? Anyways, I don't know if he's "the best most amazing thing that's ever happened to me!1!1" because everything is still new, but he is pretty fucking incredible. ❤️
ALSO! He asked me some cute ass shit:,) he said "If you and me are still dating and like four, five, six years and I asked you the question, like, what would you say?" the question being "Will you marry me?" And I was like SKSKSKS FUCKING YES but then I thought about it and then I realized if I'm sticking w someone for 4-6 years there must be maaaad chemistry and love between us and I wouldn't wanna put that to shame so I'm 98% sure if say yes:)))))))!!!
