(july10) hello. i've come to the conclusion that i'm very mentally ill.
i mean, i've always known this. but it's really hitting me now, on this fine night. i realized i fall or crazy people. like CRAZY people. like scared for my life crazy. and i like it. i like to be hurt, tortured. but not just physically. mentally too. i hurt myself mentally. and apparently that's bad so... yeah
anyways. i found out my boyfriends not as crazy as i thought but i still love him don't worry kids. i just. i'm addicted to the rush ya know. i fantasize about getting taken away and developing stockholm syndrome. falling for a sick person. being the harley to their joker. SPEAKING of joker. jerome valeska. ian gallagher. what do these two people have in common: CAMERON MONAGHAN!
i'm like whIPPED for him rn. like W H I P P E D! like id leave my life behind in an INSTANT to have 5 minutes with him. and within those five minutes i'd obviously seduce him and like make him fall in love with me and blah blah blah blah. but he plays crazy charters right? Jerome (oh my fUCKING GOD) is sO ATTRACTIVE!
not just physically tho because then obviously he is have you SEEN who he's played by?? but no, it's more than that. his personality. fUCK HIS CRAZY PERSONALITY! UGH! THE CRAZY JUST GETS ME GOINGGGGGG!!!! i feel like the problem is i don't have much to live for in life yk? (august31) like i have no clue what i wanna do with my life. no idea. i just wanna be a trophy wife lowkey. like a pretty lil sidekick. like, again, harley quinn. like i CAN do stuff on my own and i'm a natural badass, but i just much prefer being with my puddin.
like if some hot psycho killer clown abducted me and was like "ur mai slave now:)" id be like "shit ok". well. i'd be scared. but later i'd end up being like "shit ok" y'know? like what the fuck do i have in life. not much that's for sure!!!
