Hey, I really emotional right now and I don't know what to do.
Like do you know that feeling of guilt and inspiration and sadness and need and anger you get in the gut of your stomach.
You feel so much pressure in the pit of your stomach and it hurts a lot.
But not just physically, mentally too.
It just makes you wanna cry, but you just can't get it out. And you start to sweat. A lot. And you need so much that right at your fingertips but you can't have. And you just wanna jump off a bridge and feel the satisfaction of cool water surrounding your body. But you only wanna drown for a few minutes. You want to jump for the release of anxiety, but you wanna live on. Or not.
You feel likes there's so much you can and need to do. So many people you have to see. So many things you have to say. But you just can't get it out.
Can't move. Only think. And then that pain comes and a tears brim your eyes but refuse to leave.
Just me?
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