Avengers Imagines pt.1

I can't *️⃣ Steve.

Song: X & Y - Coldplay.

Imagine; pushing Steve away because you always picture the horrendous events in your head when you with him.

Warning ; it kinda mentions rape, you're basically telling him about it, so be aware!.

Also I'm so sorry I hate to do this to you.

I'll post a happy one too I promise
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Steve is hovering over you as he kisses you.

You like it at first but then the memories start to replay from a few months ago.

You ignore them for a while but when Steve starts to kiss in your neck you start to panic as you can hear 'the voice' again.

The voice that has been hunting you ever since the party where it all happened.

'I know you like this, you've been teasing me for so long, I'm done y/n...you're all mine now, stop resisting...' the voice echoes in your head.

A tear rolls down your cheek, and another, and another, all silent tears, just like at the party.

'I can't take my eyes off of you...just look at you...so beautiful...'

'Stop...' you say.

'What?' Steve asks.

'Please just stop...I can't Steve...I can't do it...' you repeat pushing him off.

He stares at you with a worried and scared impression.

'Did I do something?' He asks and you shake your head as you get up and walk to the wall, you slide down until you're sitting on the ground, face in your hands and you start to sob.

'What's going on?...please tell me...' Steve softly asks as he kneels in front of you.

You take your hands away from your face and you look at him with red and watery eyes.

'I can't Steve...I thought I could...you know ignore it, but I can't...'

'Ignore what?'

'I-I...' you stutter.

'You can tell me anything you know that...'

'Tony's party...I got drugged, and...and...I couldn't fight back and...' you sob.

'Those bruises, they weren't from fighting were they?'

You look at him with tears streaming down your eyes.

He sits next to you and pulls you close.

'If I see that son of a bitch I'm gonna...' Steve starts to get angry.

'I-I couldn't see who did it, I can only hear his voice...feel his hands...everywhere...' you cry.

'I'm here...I'm gonna protect you and I'm gonna Kill the man who did this to you...I'm not gonna stop until I find him...'

'I screwed up...I screwed us up...'

'No that's not true...he did that...not you...' he says giving you a kiss on your head.

[two weeks later]

'See this is fun right?' You smile as Steve swirls with you around the dance floor.

'Very fun...' Steve smiles at your silliness as he pulls you to him and you crash into him.

You burst out of laughing and you look into his eyes.

'I love you y/n...' Steve smiles and that makes you incredibly happy.

'I love you too...' you reply softly.

'I'm gonna get us some drinks...' Steve says as he walks away.

'Want to dance?' Rumlow asks and you nod as you take his hand with a smile.

'I haven't seen you in forever where have you been?' You ask politely.

'Oh just missions...the world needs SHIELD, and this is all I really have..my job...' he says a tad sad.

'Oh no person to come home to?' You ask as he twirls you around.

'Not yet...lets say I haven't met the right person...' he replies as he looks right into your eyes, making you a bit uncomfortable.

He pulls you close and you start to slow dance.

'Just look at you...so beautiful...' he whispers in your ear and your eyes go big in realisation.

He was the one who drugged you, and took advantage of you.

You act like everything is fine as you gently try to push him off.

'I'm going to go to Steve, he's waiting with the drinks..' you quickly say and he lets go off you as you stumble away.

You almost crash into the bar as you're trying to get to Steve.

'Y/n...what happened?' Steve says when he sees your panicking look. 

'Rumlow....he, he...' you stutter but you can't get the words out.

'What?, He What?' Steve asks worried.

You just look at him, tears forming in your eyes and his expression changes, he clearly gets the message as you see him tense up and get angry.

'It was him...'

'I recognised his voice, and...and he got so close again and I started to panic again..' you stutter again and Steve cuts you off by pulling you into a hug.

'I'm gonna keep my promise and make sure he doesn't get away with this...' Steve says and when you both turn around Rumlow is standing right in front of you two and you try to hold Steve back with your hand on his arm, but he pulls his arm away.

'You're the one who abused y/n weren't you...' Steve hisses.

'So you just had to dig deeper, what happened y/n..you recognised me, I'd like to know because then I can double the dose next time...'

'There won't be a next time..' Steve says as he grabs his arm.

'Please don't make a scene right here..' you whine, Steve clearly not hearing you he slams Rumlow into the bar and waits for the security to take him away.

'Y/n are you okay?' Nat asks and you slowly nod.

'I am actually...' you say a bit in shock as you see Rumlow getting escorted to the real cops outside.

Steve talks to the cops and Nat stays with you, she knew from the beginning what happened that night and she did some research for herself.

'It's over now...' Nat whispers as she gives you a hug.

'Thank god..' you mutter as you smile.

You both let go and she gives you an reassuring smile.

You walk to Steve and he kisses your head as you wrap your arms around him, closing your eyes.

'You're my hero...' you sigh.

'And you're mine...' he replies with a small smile.