Avengers Imagines pt.1

Hurt *️⃣ Loki.

Song: Coldplay ft. Rihanna - princess of China.

Imagine; when you get mad or when you want to, you can turn into a demon, eyes will be black and your skin will turn pale white. You hate it and Loki comforts you about it.
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'Why did you do that?' You ask Loki as you two walk into your shared bedroom.

'Do what?, I do not understand what your implying love...' he replies.

'Why did you want me to hide?' You ask.

He knows why he said that, but doesn't want to say that you scared the children more than the actual monster did. He doesn't want to hurt you even more.

'I didn't want you to get hurt...you're my everything...'

'You're lying, I can see right through it Loki, I know when people lie to me...tell me the truth...'

'I am telling you the truth...' he says stubborn, clenching his jaw, head up high.

'Try that again...if you're lying to me again I'm walking through that door...' you scold.

'The children...' his expression softens and he looks at you, sadness filling his eyes.

'They were more scared of you than the actual monster, so I told you to hide...' he spills.

Your eyes release the ears you've been holding back and you step back, sliding yourself down the wall into a sitting position.

'I'm sorry love I never meant to hurt you-' he starts but you cut him off.

'I understand...'

'Y-you do?' He asks surprise hidden in his tone.

'I understand that I am a monster everyone is afraid off...I understand that I am this monstrosity people want to avoid...' you mutter as you fringe your hands together.

He takes your hands in his and makes him look at you.

'You're not a monster...'

'Everyone's Afraid of me...if that's not what a monster does to people I don't know what it would...'

'You're still a human...you have two sides but you mainly use your good side...you're a good person...'

'Am I?, I can hardly even look at myself in the mirror anymore..'

'I used to have that, I still have that same issue, but because you told me I'm not a monster, I started to believe you and I started to look at myself differently, that is only something good people do...'

'You can control it, the way you shift, I hardly can Loki!, it's just a bomb waiting to go off, I have no control over what I do...and you know what the worst thing is?'

He gives you a questioning look, slowly releasing your hands.

'You're afraid of me too....the person I fully committed to, the person I trust, yet I get confronted with lies and fear from the exact same person...'

'I'm not afraid of you...' Loki responds.

You turn to look at him and your expression changes, your skin becomes like porcelain, black eyes show and you almost jump at Loki and he stumbles back.

Fear clearly readable in his eyes, caution written all over his body as he looks at you.

'See?' You sob as you turn back to your normal state.

You walk away putting a hand on your mouth, trying to muffle the uncontrolled sobs coming out of your mouth as you rush to the top deck. The place were you come to think as you watch over New York.

'Y/n wait!' You can hear Loki yell but you ignore him.

You sit down on the edge of the deck and you let your feet dangle over the busy streets, taking in the air you look around.

You wipe the tears away and you take in the wind, blowing through your hair and clothes, calming you down just by focusing on it.

You close your eyes and you can feel a presence taking place next to you.

'In my defence...you always overwhelm me with your beauty at such moments...' Loki speaks up.

You don't reply and he goes on.

'Those pitch black eyes...that white porcelain like skin, the beauty of it...it's not fear and caution you read on me just now..it was interest, I was simply overwhelmed...that's all I have to say. And my apologies for lying to you...and telling you to hide...that was wrong and I am an oaf for saying that...because even though you may think of yourself as a monstrosity....that monstrosity is the one I want to be with, because I don't want only one piece of you, I am greedy and therefore I want everything of you...because I love you for who you are...please forgive me...'Loki says and you finally open your eyes and you smile at him.

'You always know what to say...well not always I mean else we wouldn't be sitting here...but I forgive you Loki, even when I'm mad at you, I'm not...not really....because...I love you...' you reply.

He lifts your chin with two fingers and you happily lean in.

He places a soft kiss on your lips and you chuckle when he leans back.

You push him back and you get on top of him. You kiss him again but stop when you hear footsteps.

'No baby-making on my deck...'

Your head snaps to Tony and your eyes turn black.

He puts his hands up in defence and he quickly turns on his heels and walks away.

You turn back to Loki and he smirks at you.

'It does sound very tempting...you know the baby-making he speaks off...' he grins.

'Not here honey...not here it does not, lets go...' you reply pulling him back up with you.