Her Bad Boy

Chapter 37

He put a plate of food in front of and motioned for me to eat. He took a sit opposite from me, studying me. At first i couldn't look at him but after a while i gathered my courage. He wasn't hurt anymore, all of his bruises were gone and he cut his beard. He had his eyebrows furrowed

"What?" I asked slowly

"You look the same, yet you're so changed" he said more to himself

"Well yeah being tortured and killing people changes you" i shrugged

"That's why you killed him? Marco? Because he tortured you?" He looked at me, his eyes very soft. I nodded my head unable to speak

"I'm sorry for what i did to you, Alec. I couldn't control myself" i shook my head feeling a horrible pain in my heart

"I forgive you" he said softy

"Why?" I asked relieved

"Because-" he stopped looking intensely at my neck. I stopped chewing as he got up and walked to me. He knelt down so he was at eye level with me. He looked at me for a second, almost hesitating, then he extended his hand. He touched the necklace with the silver 'A' and sighed. "You still have it?" He looked me in the eyes and i saw that the sparkle was back.

"Yes" i said my eyes on his hand that was playing with the necklace. A thought passed my mind: he could strangle me any moment with it. I usually wouldn't let anyone do that if there was even a little chance of them trying to kill me. But looking at Alec i knew that even if he did kill me, i wouldn't mind a bit. I shook my head making those thoughts go away. "It was my lucky talisman"

"Why?" He asked but this time his voice was hoarse. I felt that it had a deeper meaning but i chose to ignore it

"I'm alive, aren't i?" I tried to smile but it came out as a grimace probably. He was quiet for a bit but then he got up his hand leaving my neck

"You should finish eating" he saud clearing his throat. My plate was half full but i wasn't hungry anymore

"Actually I've had enough. Thank you, for everything" he nodded.

"What do you wanna do?" He asked looking a bit uncomfortable

"Kinda find more about you" this time i was the one hesitating "if you wanna tell me" i bit my bottom lip. The way his eyes travelled from my eyes to my lip and back again, made me feel like it was too hot in here. I took of my sweater. I was now left in my white top. For a second he checked me out but then his eyes were back to mine

"What do you want to find out?" He asked calmly. He started walking to the living room and i followed him. He took a seat on the couch and i sat next to him, but not too close.

"How have you been? Do you have a girlfriend? Are you engaged?"

"I'm good, i guess. And no, i don't have a girlfriend and I'm not engaged" he said in relaxed voice

"How?" I asked a bit too shocked then i intended

"I don't do dates" he shrugged

"Don't feed me crap!" My tone was meaner then i intended. He turned to me his eyebrows raised "sorry" i said biting my lip again "but you were engaged with Irina before so i don't think the whole you don't do relationships is the real reason you don't have a girlfriend" he didn't seem shocked that i knew he was engaged with Irina, actually he didn't react in any way

"Maybe I can't have a relationship because i love someone already" he sounded so detached. But how is it possible that he's still in love with Irina? After so many years

"Irina?" I asked my voice just above a whisper. He didn't say anything but the way he looked at me meant more than a thousand words. Irina wasn't the one he was in love with. "Oh" is all i could think to say. I looked down at my lap begging for the earth to swallow me. I haven't blushed in 3 years but now was so not the moment to start.

"Are you in love with him?" I looked up frowning "Kane?" He said through gritted teeth

"I love him" i said simply

"That's not what i asked" he was smirking now but he looked a bit vulnerable

"No. I'm not in love with him. I never was. He was just convenient. A kind man who could make me forget the shit in my life" it was hard admitting it to him but it was harder admitting it to myself.

"I'm sorry. That i wasn't there for you" he said taking long breaths. His face changed. I frowned looking at him. His eyes were closed and his face was red, his hands were curled into fists and i could see how white his knuckles were. His breath was unregulated. I gulped and moved closer to him. I took a deep breath and touched his face, slowly, as gently as I could.

"Are you ok?" I asked concerned. He opened his eyes. They were like a wild storm

"You're not the only one that has problems with self control" i felt him starting to calm down but i couldn't bring myself to take my hand away. I liked my lips and he followed my tongue. He closed his eyes again and bit his lip. He was biting it so hard some blood was starting to drip from it. I moved my thumb over his lip releasing

"Alec..." I whispered but i didn't have time to finish cause he had me pinned under him on the couch. I was the one out of breath now. I looked at him shocked and the storm in his eyes was still there.