Student x Teacher - Boy x Boy (Completed)

Warmth is Recognisable

There is a special warmth that clings to me, keeps me calm and makes me feel secure. It's hard to describe but maybe it's an amiable feeling. A feeling I've felt somewhere before. I can’t describe it completely. The feeling is different from normal warmth you feel like when you sit in the sun or have the heater on in winter. I can't help but smile very slightly knowing I can never be harmed as long as this warmth doesn't leave me.

I manage to open my tired eyes slightly; my vision, a little fuzzy but something soft is touching my face. A piece of material? I open my eyes more trying to figure out what is touching my face then realised it is a t-shirt. 'An odd place for a t-shirt to be,' I thought as two arms move slightly around my waist, keeping me from moving away. My eyes widen as I now figured it is Mr Tanazuki. He must have fallen asleep while he was comforting me. Last night was so hard for me. For the first time I showed every tear I had hidden away deep in my heart from the rest of the world. I don't know what Mr Tanazuki did but he managed to witness my weakened state and all my sadness that erupted out like a volcano.

I have to get rid of this fear of not wanting people in my life. I know I say to not let anyone in but I can’t help but yearn for something I’m pushing away. It may take me days, weeks, months or even years. If only I could control my emotions and don't let my past get the better of me.

I shift my head slightly trying not to wake him. A hot flush swept over my cheeks giving a red tinge to my skin. My heart started beating faster. Why all of a sudden do I feel embarrassed or shy about someone hugging me? Guess I haven’t been hugged in years.

I shift a little more but then Mr Tanazuki's bright blue eyes open and looked into mine. I can't look away but I stayed silent and just stared into his eyes with a blank expression, hiding the hot flush I had a moment ago.

I can see his facial features more clearly this close. His cheek bones are high and the ideal of being perfect. He has a heart shaped face and long thick eyelashes. His hair looks so soft as it falls to one side out of his eyes. It is different for me to be so close to my teacher or anyone else for a matter of fact. Mr Tanazuki finally broke the silence between us.

"Sleep well Shiro?" I blink and forget about studying his facial features and answer his question.

"Y-Yea..." I feel nervous all of a sudden. I gulp and try calming down. Mr Tanazuki smiled softly and snuggled into me. That hot flush went to my cheeks again. Calming down isn't something I can do right now. To feel Mr Tanazuki embrace me like this is sort of nice but he is my teacher. I will get a really bad reputation and people will get the wrong idea about me.

I can't seem to shrug him off. He is a python clinging onto its prey but his hold is a lot gentler. Even his legs are wrapped around mine so there is no possible way of escaping. Next Mr Tanazuki shifted down a little and put his head to my chest. A shiver went down my spine like a Mexican wave and I shut my eyes tight. I am starting to get a bad idea about this. I have to think positive that Mr Tanazuki isn't 'that' type of person.

“I miss this…” Mr Tanazuki mumbled. I freeze and open my eyes looking at him. Did he just say..? Mr Tanazuki tightened the hug all of a sudden, distracting me.

'Mr Tanazuki you got to stop please!' I want to shout those words but not even my lips will move to make an attempt. My body lies still as he rested his head on my chest. My breathing grows slightly heavier and more often as my heart beat faster. I feel all hot inside, melting with a tingling sensation in my torso. I just hope Mr Tanazuki doesn't notice my change in breathing and my heart rate. I don't think I would live if he said anything.

Every second is lasting for forever. I can hear the ticking of the clock in the kitchen that isn't even in my room. The house is so silent that I would hear a pin drop. I glance over at the alarm clock on the bedside table and notice it had only been six minutes. Mr Tanazuki then slowly lets go of my skinny body and sits up. He stretches his arms out, flexing his toned muscles at the same time. His shirt lifted up a little exposing the bottom of his stomach. I can't help but stare. My eyes glued to his body. He is really strongly built; the total opposite of me. When he wears a jumper it's hard to tell how big his muscles are...not that I take any notice of course.

I am normally too busy in my own little world to even notice such a thing. I hear a yawn then with his stunning blue eyes he looks down at me.  I instantly averted my eyes so he didn’t notice me staring at him.

"I-I've got to get ready for school..." I mumble. Finally I found an excuse to break the silence and move away from him to actually try and calm down. I get up off the bed; the sheets fall off the side as I do so. I go over to the closet at the side of the room to grab my uniform then I pause, half holding the door open. I think for a moment then look down at what I am wearing.

I remember falling asleep at school in my school uniform and when I woke up yesterday I didn't get changed. How on earth did I get into another shirt and a pair of PJ pants?! I am so confused then it hits me...Mr Tanazuki he...he must of changed my clothes!!!

I panic on the inside but look calm on the outside except for my face. My face is completely red. My teacher changed my clothes when I was asleep! How much more can I take? I can't help but panic. My heart is now beating so fast it feels as if it is coming out of my chest. Luckily I have my back turned away from Mr Tanazuki. Why do I sudden feel embarrassed? What happened to the emotionless Shiro?!

"Today is Saturday silly." I hear him chuckle a little. I hear another sound, a rustling sound. It sounds like Mr Tanazuki is making the bed. I never make my bed, well at least not properly.

"Saturday?" My voice is slightly shaky then I close the closet refusing to look at him. "Oh...well I...need to go shopping…." I stop again, pausing not really expecting a response.

"Shopping? Don't mind if I tag along? Become friends with you and get to know you better; if that's okay of course?" He sounds cheery and I can feel his eyes looking at me as I face away from him. It’s rather amazing that humans can feel the presence of other beings or feel eyes on themselves. Must be an ancestry inherit. Damn…why does he have to ask that?

"Whatever..." My voice is quieter. Sometimes I wonder why Akatsuki is even bothers with me. At school when he is teaching he sometimes goes into a day dream and all the other students giggle amongst each other and try and get him to focus. I can't care less if he is teaching or not because all I got to do is try hard when I want to or for a test and finish school as fast as possible. That’s my goal.

"You can call me Akatsuki outside of school okay?” Turning around I see a big bright smile on his lips. I sigh silently and regrettably but now I can’t really back out of it.

"Akatsuki..." Wow that sounds so weird to say. It's going to be a long day. I grab a change of clothes then went to the bathroom closing the door behind myself.