Student x Teacher - Boy x Boy (Completed)

A New Change of Environment

I feel Akatsuki's head move closer to my ear as he holds me. The tears slowly stop running down my cheeks. Over the last week I have cried so much. They are tears that haven’t been released in so many years. I thought I was strong, I thought I would never shed one tear. I feel so exhausted from it all and I've only cried in front of Akatsuki.

The kiss...dreams...Akatsuki...just what is the missing piece to the puzzle? Akatsuki isn't telling me what is missing. Do I ask or wait?

"Move in with me..." Akatsuki mumbles. "You don't have to be alone any more Shiro..." He moves his head back and looks into my pine green eyes. I am almost speechless. I don't even know what to say or how to answer back. To ask such a question and I don’t even know him that well. I know he knew my mother but what if this is too soon? I can’t handle events that go to fast but I want to get to know him. I want to figure out who I am and who my real family is.

I look back into his eyes. There is a silence between us for a moment. Half of me wants to say yes instantly then the other half is telling me to leave him and live alone; shut of the rest of the world out. I’ve had my mind set on ignoring the world for years now but to suddenly come out and be more open so suddenly is scary and I can’t cope with it all. It’s too much stress to even think about.

“I…” My words don’t want to leave my mouth. ‘Don’t regret anything Shiro’ I tell myself as it echoes in my mind. I pause then finally say what I want; what I need to say. “I’ll go.”

I hug him again and bury my face away. Being with Akatsuki may be my only ticket out of sadness but it could also just be the opposite. I'll just have to take that risk. Even if I have my doubts and change my mind I think Akatsuki will be the one to free me. He also knows a lot about my mum. He may even have photos.

I feel his grip tighten a little then he lets me go holding my hand.

“Why don’t we go pop back at your place and grab your things. My car is around the corner.” He smiles softly making me relax and calm down. Leading the way he is still holding onto my hand gently. His hand is warm. I intertwine my fingers with his and he gives my hand a little squeeze. I walk closely beside him, following him like a little lost puppy. I am lost though. I’ve always been lost.

In my other hand I clutch onto the silver locket. I am never going to let go of it as it means so much to me.

Walking past the front of the school again we came to the corner of the street. There are a few cars parked in the staff car park. Akatsuki walks over to a silver GAC Everus S1, A really nice looking car but not a well know one that’s for sure. The car was made in China a few years ago and Akatsuki must have bought it if he went over there as I've never really seen any around Japan. I know a little bit about cars but only their names and where they are from. I can't tell you much about them though.

Akatsuki opens the passenger door for me and I hop in. He closes the door once I’m in and I buckle up putting the metal buckle into the slot to lock. It is quite new looking and in really good condition. Many cool features like a button to make the window go down instead of the odd wind down handle. Also many other features like a GPS. All those sorts of things you find in a modern day cars. Akatsuki climbs into the driver's seat beside me and fastens up too.

"Nice car." I glance at Akatsuki while still clutching onto the locket in my hand.

"Thank you. Bought it last year but I need a smaller one though" He smiles sweetly and adds a little laugh. "Would you like me to tie it around your neck so you don't lose it?"

"Uhhh...okay." I give the locket to Akatsuki carefully and turn my back to him. He leans over and put the necklace around my neck. It is a little girly to wear a locket but it means a lot to me. I hear Akatsuki then lean back after putting the two ends together.

"There you go." I sit back in the seat and look down at the locket running my thumb over the smooth surface. I’ve just noticed how shinny it is as I can see my reflection.

"Thank you." Akatsuki starts the engine of the car and drives off down the street heading to my apartment. I look out the window thinking about a few things. It's been a while since I've been in a car or public transport. I don't really need to go on public transport as everything I need is within walking distance. It’s handy and a cheaper alternative. I can relax for once.

It is a few minutes later that Akatsuki pulls the car up just outside my apartment building. I open the door and climb out stretching a little before closing the door once more. Akatsuki does the same and we forward into the building going to the elevator. I press the button and wait for the door to open.

It takes a moment but once the doors is open we walk in and go up to the second floor. I walk over to my room and get my keys out of my pocket and unlock the door. Walking in, I turn back to Akatsuki.

"Please make yourself at home." I mumble as I walk into my bedroom. My apartment has four tiny rooms in total; one bedroom, a mini ensuite, a little study room which is filled with boxes, and the kitchen and the main living room are in the same room.  It's a small apartment though but enough for a person who lives alone. It is surprisingly cheap too.

I pull out a suitcase from my tall cupboard up above me and start packing all my clothes into it. I don't have many as I receive only a little bit of money each week. It's just enough for food and buying other things. I don’t need to buy fancy items or clothes anyway.

Pulling out what I have in clothes I fold them and place them in the suitcase neatly. It takes a while but I get it all done.

Zipping it up I look around the room then get up and pull off the photo frames and posters I have on the wall. I only have a few photos but only of myself and these strangers. I don’t know who they are but it assures me that some people knew me. It would most likely be my parents but in the photos I have they don’t show their faces. Mine is the only one I can see in any of the photos. The other people have either their head turned down and away or just have their arms in the photo or even their back to the camera.

I stop and look at one photo In particular. It is of me but it looks like I’m running to someone with my arms out wide and this big grin painted on my lips. On the left of the photo there are two hands out to me. I’ve always regarded this person in the photo to be a family member. I can tell it’s a woman as the hands look soft and are small. A bracelet is also present on her wrist with a heart shaped charm.

I sigh a little and put it in the pile of photos beside my suit case. Luckily I don’t have many items to take with me. This apartment came with furniture which was really handy.

I lift up the hidden handle and roll the suitcase out of the room putting it at the door then I go and grab the photos and put them near the table that is closest to the door. I go into the bathroom grabbing my toothbrush, shampoo and conditioner and a few other items then the last thing I have to do was grab everything else that is around in the apartment that I need. Akatsuki stands up from the couch that he made himself comfortable on.

“I see you’re almost ready. Want some help?” He smiles softly over at me.

“Could you take what I’ve packed to the car please?.” I smile very slightly then disappear into the kitchen.

“Sure.” I hear him walk to the door picking up the suitcase. I sigh quietly and look out the kitchen window. It feels like my life is starting over. A new beginning.