Student x Teacher - Boy x Boy (Completed)

A Kiss Of New Hope

For the rest of the weekend I was out and about so Akatsuki wouldn't be able to get in contact with me if he tried. I know I’m being selfish and I'm rude and childish for running away but these dreams...It scares me to not know what they mean. I've been having them every night since I've met Akatsuki. My original dreams are different again and still did scare me but not like they are now. There has been a young boy in my dreams now whom I never used to dream about. It's weird that it started when I met him I mean what could he possibly have to do with my life when I only met him the other week. It's frustrating...

I sigh and sit down on a metal playground swing. I have been hanging at the local park today. No little kids are here today which is great so I can be at peace and relax by myself. It is a small park with a swing set, monkey bars and a sandpit. A pretty basic park but it's good for the locals and their children. It's a fairly new park too. I remember it used to be just this grass patch with a road surrounding it. Basically like a roundabout but a little bigger.

The air is fresh and cleaner than in the inner city. It is still crowded around here with all the apartment blocks but for a Sunday afternoon it is quiet. Maybe lots of people are having a nap or are just at work. At any rate, it is still unusually quiet. I love quietness but today silence irritates me. I want to hear the sound of laughing children. I want to hear the birds sing and the cars drive past. I want the old lady from down the road to wave and smile at me but no one is around.

I feel lonely and it's my entire fault. If only I wasn't like this I could enjoy the company of people and laugh. I have mixed feelings of the way I want to be. I don’t know anymore how I want to feel anymore. I turned my back on the world when I thought nothing or no one could ever save me so now it’s so hard to decide what I want to do.

Why is Akatsuki the only one to crack my shell open and show me the new world of life? It doesn't make sense. I can't even remember the last time I went out and had fun because it doesn’t exist in me. I've been locking up inside, throwing the key away and pushed away everyone who tried to be my friend or were trying to be nice. I hated people getting near me but Akatsuki is someone I am slowly starting to yearn for.

The way I think...it has changed and I can't recognise myself as Shiro anymore. I’m getting upset over the little things and I’m blaming everyone else for my own mistakes.

I feel like a new person; one who has just opened his eyes for the first time. It feels...strange and unfamiliar. If only I wasn't shutting people off I could have enjoyed this lively world; a world where people really do care about you. Maybe there really is a rainbow on the other side.

I sigh and stand up again. The swing sways a bit as I get off it then I put my hands in my pockets and start walking home but I am going to take a detour and walk past the school; Horikoshi High School.

As I start walking down the street I noticed more people are out walking and driving on the road. I feel relieved that it wasn't just a dead world or my imagination which it probably was.

Looking back on what I've been through with Akatsuki already, I feel as if we probably have met before. I can't be sure but I have a hunch. If I met Akatsuki a few years ago, before I lost my memories, I wonder what he would have meant to me.

Sighing again I kick a little rock up on the footpath ahead of me. My feet are slightly dragging on the ground as I walk. The school is only down the street and around the corner.

It feels like forever as I have loads of things on my mind but I eventually get there. I stop by the gate and look up at the empty school. I scan the entire building knowing no one will be there but I just can't help myself wonder. My curiosity gets the better of me. No one is there...

I turn away and walk down the street again looking more at the ground. I’m not really paying much attention when I suddenly walk into a pole.

I fall backwards and land on my bum on the pavement. Instantly I put my hand to my head wincing a bit. Who else these days walks into poles? My head is ringing and I can already feel a slight egg shape bump on my forehead. I sit here for a moment when a hand touches my shoulder and a gentle voice comforts me.

"You okay Shiro?"

The voice, soft as a whisper; a soft manly voice, wakes me up from a daze into reality. I slowly look back and speak of the devil. Akatsuki is there right behind me crouched down. Why do I keep seeing him all over the place? It's frustrating and annoying but somehow relieving. I look away and started getting up on my own brushing his hand off my shoulder.

"I'm fine." I muttered trying to hide the fact my head is still ringing. As I got half up on my own Akatsuki's hands held my arm, helping me up until I stood up straight. I pull away from him and stand not even glancing at him.

"Don't touch me..."

"Shiro I..." He pauses. I can feel his eyes looking at me, piercing me all over. For some reason I feel annoyed and just want him to leave. My mood has completely changed from earlier. "I'm sorry..."

'Why is he apologising?! Is he trying to get on my nerves!?’ I think to myself and finally face him. He is looking down feeling a little hurt. Now he makes me angry.

"Just what do you want!? You appear out of nowhere and you give your kindness so lightly. Why me? Why do you come when I don't need you!?" Tears started filling the corners of my eyes. Why am I upset? He didn't do anything to make me upset but he just annoys me so much whenever I get near him. One minute I want him to be with me then the next I want him to disappear. How can he just come to my side and be so kind…?

He looks up, his facial expression now changing. It is hard to read though. I still kept up the irritated and annoyed look as Akatsuki's eyes looked apologetic and somehow lonely. Just what is it he is thinking right now?

"Shiro…you would probably hate me if I say too much…" His gaze averts mine seconds later. I don’t want him to not tell me but at the same time I probably end up avoiding him all together.

"Just leave me alone...You don't have to help me anymore..." My body turns me away in the direction of home and I begin to walk. Holding back my tears I look towards the ground not even sure if this is the right thing to do. I can’t make any decisions right and I’m just so messed up that everything doesn’t make any sense anymore.

Akatsuki then suddenly grabs my hand stopping me. My eyes widened slightly and I go push him away when he unexpectedly turns me around and pulls me close by the waist. I have no idea what he is doing but he leans his face closer to mine and then his lips...his lips press against my soft ones. My eyes widen even more as I can't move or push him away. His hold is firm on my waist holding me against him.

This kiss is warm and gentle. It sends tingles all the way down my spine and makes my whole body react in a way I have never felt before. I can't help myself but close my eyes tightly. This has been too much of a surprise and I can't say I dislike it but it is Akatsuki...my English teacher!