Student x Teacher - Boy x Boy (Completed)

Why Does It Feel Too Good To Stop?

The granite kitchen bench presses against my lower back as Akatsuki’s masculine leg stays lodged in between mine. I can’t move as his hold is firm but made me feel hot in the cheeks.

Our tongues twist and rub together as he embraces me. Our saliva mixing with each other’s leaving a unique taste in my mouth which I can’t describe. My heart beats faster and like it is about to burst out of my chest. 

My eyes are closed and I guess Akatsuki’s are too. I would have never imagined anyone kissing me, especially not Akatsuki. He did kiss me earlier but this one is different. I don’t know why but I want more. My body is taking control of my thoughts and actions. Lust and passion begins to form the more we smooch overpoweringly.

Akatsuki’s hand slides down my back a little then lifts me up on top of the bench. He presses his body closer as I hesitantly wrap my legs around his waist. I shift my arms around his neck making our chests touch. My cheeks redden. It is all intense but it feels so wonderful that I don’t want it to end any time soon.

Akatsuki’s soft hand finds the bottom of my shirt and slides it up on the inside. I shiver slightly as his hand is warm against my cool skin.

Akatsuki breaks the kiss slightly and I open my eyes slowly, panting. How can you be so exhausted just from one kiss? He smiles charmingly intoxicating my heart so it hurts so much it pounds a drum. He then kisses my red cheek before trail kissing to my ear and nibbles the bottom of it slightly. His teeth are gentle though. Everything suddenly feels gentle and not forceful. For some reason I react more to his gentleness than his passionate kiss. I don’t feel threatened and at this point, if I wanted to I could push him away but even my body doesn’t want to do that. My body is frozen and won't move any more than it already has.

“A-Ahh…” I let out a soft gasp when my shirt began slowly lifting up over my head and drops onto the kitchen floor.

My heart pounds harder again as a hot flush spreads to the rest of my body. I don’t know why I am feeling this way but I’m starting to get a little nervous at the same time after Akatsuki had removed my shirt.

Akatsuki doesn’t seem to want to stop. His wet tongue licks up the side of my ear. I shut my eyes lightly, shivering the more he touches me. His hands now are placed on my flat chest. I tilt my head back facing up at the ceiling and I bite my lip conserving moans from escaping.

Akatsuki’s tender lips move down onto my neck stimulating my skin with sweet tingly sensations.

All these feelings mix and react a way I’ve never felt before. It’s hard to describe it but the more Akatsuki touches me my body yearns for more. Is this what you are meant to feel when someone expresses his or her love?

I can ask many questions on this but even my mouth doesn’t seem to want to speak those words. All that comes from my mouth are these strange gasping sounds or I just tremble from his gentleness. I’m finding this rather embarrassing now.

I lift my hand to my mouth to muffle these strange sounds I am making. Akatsuki then starts kissing along my collarbone then further down to my nipples. My nipples tingle as he sucks on them. I shift slightly wondering why it feels nice. My nipples haven’t felt this way before but at the same time no one has touched them either.

His slimy tongue then licks around the little pink bud making me gasp out again. He trails his tongue and a circular motion. They harden as something else further down hardens as well.

My pants feel tight and uncomfortable now. There are too many places feeling aroused at the exact time but it is all pleasurable.

Thoughts run into my head as I manage to clear some room to think. My brain is already mostly occupied with Akatsuki. Is it right for two men to be doing this? I’ve always seen a girl and guy be lovey-dovey but there is something different with Akatsuki and I. Akatsuki and I are two men.

I start getting these worried thoughts the more I think about it. I could be over thinking things but I can’t help but wonder; should we be doing this? What would other people think?

I bite my lip a little harder, notching tooth marks in the flesh slightly, not wanting to make these weird noises anymore. Opening my eyes for a split moment I notice I am the only one who isn’t wearing a shirt. This makes the situation even more embarrassing. I can’t say I don’t like what Akatsuki is doing but is it really meant to feel good? I’ve never been interested in wanting to be in a relationship so I have no experience. He is an extremely attractive young man but why would he want to love me? There isn’t anything special about me. I’m just an average teenager who has no experience and pushes people away so they don’t get close and I can’t hurt them.

Akatsuki stimulates my nipples with his tongue and warm lips longer as shivers travel down my spine like a Mexican wave. I manage to stop the sounds as much as I can but it isn’t easy. Akatsuki then stops and pulls his head away slowly. A string of saliva hangs from his mouth and is attached to my hardened nipple. He stands up straight but is leaning his body against the bench. My legs are still around his waist. Our faces are level for once as I am sitting on the bench and our eyes meet. His are gentle and tender as we look beyond the black hollow openings that lie in the centre of our eyes.

My heart is still racing as there is silence for a short moment. I wonder what Akatsuki is thinking as he leans closer and presses his forehead to mine. His eyes close and he holds both my hands, interlocking our fingers together.

“I love you Shiro. More than you know.” He whispers soothingly. “I want you to slowly get to love me back. It’s not fair if I force you. I want you to remember the times we spent years ago together.” I bite my lip thinking of something else. This feels right but whether it is right is another story.

“Akatsuki is it…is okay for us to be doing this I-I mean we are both men.” I grow nervous as I may have just offended Akatsuki. I just hope he doesn’t take that the wrong way. This is really getting my heart beating slower as I wait for an answer. Each beat batters and hurts my chest. Akatsuki has paused for quite a while now not moving but I watch as his lips part a bit then he speaks.

“I’m not going to lie to you but it isn’t normal for two men to be together but…there are many more people like myself. It’s an unconditional love which can’t be changed. I’ve never been attracted to women. I guess the official term is homosexual. Are you worried about that Shiro? Does it make you feel uncomfortable now that you’re older?” He opens his eyes and looks at me with a hint of despondency. I know I’m worried but for different reasons. I don’t know what to tell him though. I can’t make him worry after what we just did. It wouldn’t be right to change the mood or would it?

“To be honest… just a little bit but…it’s more…well…” I don’t know what to say to him. I avert his gaze but then his large hands cup my cheeks and forcing me to look at him. I just stare into his lovely Pacific Ocean eyes.

“You can tell me anything Shiro okay.” He smiled gently at me.

I can’t even remember anything of meeting Akatsuki in my past no matter how hard I try. I know I can trust him but there are still many things I don’t understand yet that I think should wait for another day. Right now after all what has happened tonight my mind has decided to just rest with him. I say I want to be alone but I can’t decide that any more. Akatsuki has changed the way I think, say, touch, hear and see things. All my five senses have changed because of him. Right now I just can’t say if it’s a good thing though.

“C-Can we talk about it later? I-I just want to rest on it.” My excuse…it’s better not to get Akatsuki worried. Not now. I still don’t like worrying people. That is one thing that hasn’t changed. Akatsuki sighs a little as if he wanted to desperately know now. I’m sorry Akatsuki. Please understand.

“I did say I wanted you to get to love me slowly so let’s just go to sleep. We don’t need to rush into things. I guess I got a little carried away and excited. I truly do love you Shiro.” Once again he plants a tender but short kiss on my lips and stands back allowing me to hop off the bench. He bends down and picks up my shirt and put it back on my skinny body.

I don’t know why but I feel a little disappointed it didn’t go on further. I don’t like it. I don’t want to lust for something so easily. I can’t let temptation and desires take over or I will never be able to live in this world freely.