The Light in my Storm

Crash(16)

"Don't look, don't look," I heard Daryl command Carol. I shook Theo's hand off my shoulder and began to stalk away. It was my fault that kid was bit, it was my fault she never got to see her mother again.

"Mo-" Katie started.

"Katie leave her alone for now," I heard Lori command her, but I went into the woods. A decent distance away and just screamed at the top of my lungs. I beat the shit out of a tree in front of me, just something to let my anger and sadness out on. My knuckles began to bleed and bruise but I continued punching it. Eventually I got exhausted and sat down leaning against the tree. I wiped the blood off onto the side of the jeans I was wearing.

After a few minutes of me trying to completely process that Sophia was dead, I heard footsteps. I pulled a knife out of my belt, but didn't really get prepared for anything. Theo stepped into my view and I put my knife back into my belt. I hugged my knees to my chest and kept my head turned away from him, I hid my hands, but he probably already saw it.

"What happened to your hands?" He asked.

"Nothing," I answered coldly, keeping them hidden.

"Yer stupid, ya know that right?" He asked, "Why are you so hurt over some random kid?"

"You are the last person I'd talk to about this," I replied bluntly.

"Fair enough," He muttered sitting down beside me, "Listen, I want to apologize."

I stayed silent.

"I cheated on you, I know it was wrong, but everyone makes mistakes," He started.

"It wasn't a mistake, you meant to do it. And you did, over and over and over again," I said tiredly keeping my head turned away from him.

"It won't happen again," He said touching my thigh, I moved away.

"Yeah, cause she's dead," I scoffed. He grabbed my hair and yanked it back forcing me to look up at him, I tried to pull away, but he held on tighter.

"Leave me alone," I growled digging my nails into his wrist, but the longer I tried to fight him, the harder he held onto my hair. It felt like he was trying to rip my scalp clean off.

"Stop!" I cried out in pain.

"Stop?" He laughed letting go and shoving my head away, "Stupid bitch."

He got up and started walking towards the farm.

"I hate you," I snarled, tears welled in my eyes, my head hurt. he turned around with a half smile and an angry look in his eyes.

"You hate me?" He asked with an unamused laugh.

"Yes," I spat out.

"I'm the only one who cares about you! Katie's a kid who thinks you left her for dead and now she's afraid you'll do it again! You have nobody else back at that camp! None of them care what happens to you, at the end of the day, you're just a piece of shit that they'll scrape off their boot! I watch out for you, I care about you, and I love you!" He yelled angrily stalking towards me, I started to stand up, but he grabbed me by the shoulders and pinned me to the ground.

"Let me go! Let me go!" I screamed at him. He started kissing my neck, he grabbed my wrists and sat on my stomach.

"You know, you used to be such a great person and I keep coming back to give you another chance," He murmered.

"Let me go!" I screamed trying to kick him, but it was no use. He sat up and smiled at me, he wasn't being his usual self. He had a different gleam in his eye. Suddenly he just let go, he became a dead weight and fell on top of me, I shoved him off. He was on the ground, Daryl had hit him in the back of the head with the handle of his knife. I let out a shaky breath and swallowed nervously.