My Scars Exposed #wattys2018

Open Wounds

        
       Everyone says to get love you have to give love,

        That you have to love yourself before you love another.

        I've heard these lines,

        Heard them a thousand times.

        But I can't love myself.

        I can't.

        I love him, and he loves someone else.

        It's too much for me to stand.

        

        But I've been standing here with open wounds,

        Bleeding slowly and crying in silence.

        You left me, it was far too soon,

        Left me with self hate and violence.

        

        I'll never forgive myself.

        I was wrong,

        I shouldn't have let you go, or you'd be with me, no one else.

        I was stupid, foolish, all along.

        

        Now my wounds are open,

        And my heart is broken. 

        I'm tired of trying to cope and,

        The words I wanna say are going unspoken.

        

        I can't stand to see you with her.

        I tell myself over and over that you're meant for me,

        But when I see how happy you are, how she's your cure...

        The cure for your heartache, I know that's how it should be.

        

        She's your painkiller,

        You're my razorblade.

        You're addicted to her,

        I'm addicted to pain.

        

        You opened my wounds,

        Yours faded away.

        I'm barely breathing,        

        And you're okay.

        

        I'm screaming my lungs out to no avail,

        You're smiling and kissing the love of your life.

        I can't keep trying just to fail,

        I'm using a razor and not a knife.

        

        Cause I have no reason to live,

        Because I just lost everything I had to live for....

I miss Josh so much...

-RWM