Everyone has what I've always wanted.
The kind of love that seems like you'd only see it on TV.
They have the courage to get through anything, and still be happy.
But every time I tried,
I'd have the opposite. I never had the chance to feel that way.
Every time I tried, inside I died.
And I was forced to walk away.
If I ever made it seem like I had the love on TV,
It was only because I was so good at hiding it, good at pretending.
Because backstage, we were never happy.
No one knew what was happening.
We'd hurt each other and scream,
Scream words so hateful and angry,
Words we'd never mean.
Words that never bothered him, just bothered me.
Whoever said love was easy was naive and a fool.
They didn't know what love really was and just thought that way.
They didn't know that the world was so cruel,
The never heard the words he'd say.
"Whore,"
"Slut."
"Do your job right and I'll stay with you,"
"Do it right and maybe I'll love you."
I know I made it seem like I wanted to do it,
But like I said I'm a good liar.
No one ever saw through it,
They didn't know about the fire.
The fire we once had that never went out.
The love, the trust.
I'm no skeptic but I always had my doubts,
Because to be honest...
It was nothing but lust.
Sorry it isn't perfect, guys, when I'm bummed out I SUCKKKK at poetry. But I hope you like it anyway. Bye bye!
-RWM
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Poetry"We've all got our horrors and our demons to fight. But how can I win when I'm paralyzed?"-Bring Me The Horizon Poetry has been a big part of my life for a long time now. I express my feelings on these pages (screens?) because sometimes it's hard to...
