TomTord oneshots

the real reason

Soooo i saw this had 4.8K views ;w; 

tf i have to make 7 of these

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anyways your thinking

Man this is 'the real reason' pffffffffffffffffft- lame

well u can go eat shoes

anyways what i mean by 'the real reason' is why i haven't been uploading a lot. well its mainly because ive had a lot of thing going on and yes this is gonna be a depression story im about to tell but here i go!

(preview of my life in da past year or so)

So when i started this story book whatever not like i care what it is...I do i mean what?? Anyways, when i started this i was and happy nerdy shy person who loved school and math (i still do) and i had a normal life until i found out one day in the morning while i woke up at 6 am to get ready for school i didn't see my mom....I said 'Dad where is mom?' he replied with 'shes in the hospital..' my eyes widened as tears formed in my eyes i nodded walking to my room and curling up into a ball crying i asked myself 'is she gonna die?!' 'is she gonna be ok?!' and for an oddly reason i blamed myself....I don't know why but i told myself i cried for weeks until well my mom was ok and was at home i was so happy...

But then my father got sick it was more serious then my mothers i was broken a child shouldn't go threw such an awful thing you would think but i went threw much worse..while does days my brother kept insulting me telling me i should go die im worthless and no one loves me...or im adopted...For a while i started believing these things..I would cry every day...But i met some friend in Spring and everything was fine until i felt like i wasn't enough and i was hurting and disappointing every person i know...of course this wasn't true but my mind was toxic and disgusting i tried to stop it but new thoughts came as i began to fight with my friends and loosing them but gaining them back just to fight again.We fought about depression and people said im not depressed....That was a lie....But they made me feel like my life was a lie like did i even exist and if i did...Did anyone really care? I had awful thoughts about killing myself but i never did...

i had no reason not to end it but my friends were there...At least i thought...

y/n:SOOOO why haven't u been uploading recently? 

Me:Srsly?

y/n:Ye

Me:Well recently ive lost a good friend of mine and we are no longer talking which broke me and ill need a small break to get over it and possibly maybe try to build our relationship back up!And another reason is my brother has been hitting me a lot and has been saying extremely rude offensive words that effect the way i look at myself and want myself to be erased from existence but honestly ive never done anything to my brother to make him hate me...I always protected him but i guess this is how he repays me....*sigh* 

Sorry for wasting your time but i love you all my little kittens!