MY BEAUTIFUL GUY (ON GOING)

NO MORE HEROES

LOT'S POV

Life will never leave me at peace.

Marahas akong napa-hinga habang pabalik - balik ng lakad sa office ko. Is this kind of a joke? Kasi hindi nakaka - tawa. Naiiling kong hayag sa sarili.

Why on Earth he is here? At paano niya nalaman na nandito ako? Unless pinagkanulo ako ng aking sariling ina. But I know she will not do that. She promised me. Nababaliw na ako sa kakaisip.

"Ms. Melloe, pina - papunta poh ulit kayo sa office ni Sir Amer." Pukaw ni Jonah sa akin.

Napa - hugot ako ng malalim na hininga. This is not what I'm looking for. Bakit ngayon pa? Bakit ngayon pang ok na ang lahat. Ok na nga ba ang lahat Lot? At the back of my mind asking.

Dali dali kong kinuha ang cellphone at nag - dial.

"Greg." Bungad ko. Mabuti na lang sa isang ring pa lang eh sumagot na agad ito.

"Hey! How are you?"

Gustohin ko mang ngumiti sa paraan ng pag - tatanong ng nasa kabilang linya ay hindi ko magawa.

"He's here." I blurted.

Pansin ko ang biglang pag - hugot ng malalim na hininga ng nasa kabilang linya.

"I need you." Mahina kong anas.

"I'm just here Melloe."

"I nee you here.."

"Ms. Melloe, tina - tawag na poh kayo ni boss" putol ni Jonah.

"Go there. You can handle him." Si Greg. "Before the day ends, I'm there already. Ok?" Pagpapa - natag niya ng loob sa akin.

"I'll wait for you." I said before I ended the call.

So, no more hiding Lot. Humugot ako ng malalim na hininga bago lumabas sa office ko.

"I'm sorry Ms. Melloe. Tawag ng tawag poh kasi si yung secretary ni boss."

"No worries Jo." Naka - ngiti kong saad pero deep inside me, hindi ko maintindihan yung nararamdaman ko.

Muli along humugot ng malalim na hininga bago kumatok sa room ni Mr. Amer. How I wish na pag - pasok ko eh wala na sila. But I know it's impossible.
Dahil pag bukas pa lang ng pinto eh nag   - tama na ang paningin naming dalawa. Na sa bawat hakbang ko, parang hinihigop ang kaluluwa ko patungo sa kanya.

Not again Lot. You are done with this shit right? Paalala ko sa sarili.

And Shane started singing.

When the waves are crashing down
Pulling you to sorrow
I will sail you back to shore
When there are no more heroes

This is crazy. Bakit kailangan nilang gawin yan?

Over under, near or far
I'll be right beside you
Standing here with open arms
When there are no more heroes

I don't hate them that's the truth. Dahil wala naman silang kinalaman sa nangyari sa amin ni Kian.

And through it all
And through it all
When you're tired and you stumble I will carry you
When starlight falls, my love will guide you home
You'll never be alone
When there are no more heroes

But, because they are connected to him, I need to cut all the communications that I have for them, even Gil for my own peace of mind. But I miss them though.

It was you who showed me how
Brought me back to glory
Through hopelessness and darkest days
It was breath you gave me

Kahit gaano kaganda ang kanta at boses nila, hindi ko pinanumbalingan.

And through it all
And through it all
When you're tired and you stumble
I will carry you
When starlight falls, my love will guide you home
You'll never be alone
When there are no more heroes

What for? Nothing will change. Things will not change. I just hope, this day ends as good as before.

And through it all
And through it all
When you're tired and you stumble
I will carry you
When starlight falls, my love will guide you home
You'll never be alone
When there are no more heroes

And I heard him. You'll never be alone? Nais kong matawa. I am alone for six fucking years because of him. I left everything just to get away from him.

And through it all
And through it all
When you're tired and you stumble I will carry you
When starlight falls, my love will guide you home
You'll never be alone
When there are no more heroesWhen there are no more heroes

Shane's voice really makes me calm. Napapailing na lang ako habang naka - tingin kay Shane.He never says anything but the way he looks at me, its different.

"Si.."

Hindi ko na natapos ang sasabihin ko dahil bigla na lang ako tinalonan ni Nicky. Muntik na akong matumba kundi lang maagap ang huli na hawakan ako sa siko para mabalik ang balanse ko.

"I can't believe it that your here." Nicky's blurted.

Wait. Umiiyak ba siya?

"Atlast! We found you Jean" saad niya habang niyayakap ako.

Found me? Bakit? Hina - hanap ba nila ako?

"Get off Nicky. It's my turn." Saway ni Shane dito. Hinila nito si Nicky para maka -alis as pagkaka - yakap sa akin. Ayaw pa sanang bumitaw nito kungdi lang niya nararamdaman na nasasaktan ako sa panghihila ni Shane.

"You can't wait, do you?" Pikon nitong sita kay Shane.

Pero hindi naman siya pinansin ni Shane.

"You are beautiful than before Jean. It's good to see you again" Naka - ngiti nitong sabi at niyakap ako.

Unlike Nicky, hindi ito masyadong excited na yakapin ako. He is still gentle. At ramdam koang bawat tapik niya sa likod ko.

"No more hiding MJ."

Nanigas ako sa kinatatayuan ko ng walang anu-ano ay bigla na lang tinabig ni Kian si Shane at niyakap ako.