D!fferent L!fe

Chapter Seventeen ~ Shame and Guilt

Oh god....

It hurts....

My head is spinning....

God I'm hungry...

Ugh stop whining. I moved my hand to my head trying to make sure I wasn't actually spinning. My head felt like it was about to burst out of my skull and my body was sore.

God what happened... I don't remember anything after... after... god. I flipped the blankets off myself and slowly moved out of Bed. The carpeted floor was warm and I yawned stretching. I rubbed my eyes a bit and blinked a few times adjusting to the light. I was greeted with a dark toned wall and a big wave confusion.

Lucy doesn't like carpet... I don't sleep in a bed... I've never seen this paint color before...

Fuck

I whipped around to see that the sun was already in full swing and to my horror someone was in the queen sized bed I was just sleeping in. I only had to take one whiff of the air to know who it was...

Shit fuck I need to leave now!

With my heart rate climbing I looked around the dark maroon colored room for bits of clothing to see they were actually in a well collected pile. I didn't even bother to change there. I darted out of the room quietly and found myself in an unfamiliar hallway. I threw my pants on and slipped a shirt on before making it to the living room. As I reached for the door noob I snatched my shoes and socks from the floor. The door was unlocked and I held my breath until I was in the hallway. It looked like an apartment complex. I sighed hard and tried to calm down as I slipped my socks and shoes on. I started down the hallway putting my jacket on.

I was terrified.

What the hell did I do!

Oh god...

Breath

Breath

I'm sure nothing happened...

Oh god I saw her bra on the floor.

AHHHHHHHHHH!

I gripped my head in the middle of the hallway like a totally sane person. I need to calm down. Greed. Said it's a black out drink... I left... maybe she won't even know I was there. Maybe no one remembers. God I can only hope.

I continued down the hall trying desperately to act like my insides didn't want to become my outsides. Between the adrenaline and the hangover and the worry, I felt like I was going to die. I located the elevator but decided against that shit show turning sharply and taking the stairs down two floors. I walked into the lobby not looking at the receptionist as I exited through the door to Lust apartment building.

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I swung by Lucy's place to down half a bottle of aspirin. She wasn't home and I called the cafe apologizing to Stella for not being there this morning.

"I figured you wouldn't be in figuring how last night went." She was laughing.

"Oh god was it that bad... I don't remember a thing."

"Don't worry about it everyone seemed to be heading home when we closed down for the night. You did how ever break a pool cue so Goliath might make you replace it."

"Okay... sorry about this morning again... see ya later." I hung up and sighed. It was already 10 so I should probably get to work... Not looking forward to that...

I decided to shower first and eat something making it 11 before I got to work. It was like a walk of shame up the stairs outside and into the building. I would have rather just stayed home. Despite the very tempting offer to walk up the stairs I decided against it not wanting to break my legs. I stepped into the small dark cramped uncomfortable place and hit the button for my floor. The elevator doors closed cutting off my route to freedom and I swallowed hard. My heart in my throat I griped onto the railing feeling a shadow creep over the room. The off putting feeling was amplified by my heart rate and the fact that my stress levels would probably kill any normal person.