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Chapter 8

Song - Bring me to life

“ Chapter 8 - Hurt ”

*Tzuyu's Pov*

I drank.

And drank.

And drank till I felt like dying. And you know what? People say drinking is a way of leaving pain beside but look it just made me remember my parents died and the guy who I thought loved me is trying to touch someone else in front of me. He doesn't even notice my presence.
Is that how I have always been like?

Invisible.

I wasn't drunk. I was wide awake. No matter how much I drank, my mind still works perfectly. I am still here. Then why does no one see me?

Eunha and Mingyu finally left the dance floor and made their way towards us. When he notices me, it was way too late.

I'll be right back. Gotta pee. I say sarcastically as Jun laughs at me, his hand holding my hand for support so that I can get up without falling.

I'm not drunk, Junieeee!

Mingyu's eyes zooms on Jun's hand holding mine as I stand up and his other hand on my back pushing me up before I walk towards the restroom.

I was surprised how I wasn't drunk yet. I walked properly, everything was clear in front of me. When I walk in, I splash water on my face.

Fuck, it's cold! I complain before meeting my own eyes in the mirror.

I still look like a freakin goddess. Well after all, I am Chou Tzuyu. Why wouldn't I look like one? I laugh at my statement. There are many people who hate themselves but I was not one of them. I love myself more than anything. Like even my parents and Mingyu.

I am selfish. I won't lie.

Yeah, so what if I am selfish, I still have a kind heart, right? I nod before turning around only to see Mingyu.

Does he have a thing for girl's restrooms?

I try to push past him but he grabs my arm and I turn to him annoyingly. My eyes shows no emotion which is what I want him to see. What he made of me.

What? I ask and he grabs both of my shoulders.

Why didn't you told me you arrived? He asks raising his eyebrows before his eyes goes up and down my body.

Asshole.

Not like we are something. I smirk and somehow he shivered. Why would he shiver? Am I that hot? Or wait, am I that cold?

Wow, you are dead drunk. He says laughing before his hands leaves my shoulders.

I am not drunk. Yet. I want to but I fucking can't because of you and your little bitch! I yell at him.

Sorry, Eunha.

Shut up, conscience.

You are jealous? Tzuyu, I don't love her, okay? I don't even like that girl. It's you. It's always been you. He assures me, staring deep in my eyes and laces his hands with mine.

No matter how much I want to believe---oh wait, I already believe what you just told me but I really can't accept it after seeing the way you touch her and laugh at her jokes. I spit out before shrugging his hands off and walking out.

It should not matter when I know he lov--likes me not her but it still hurts.
I understand whatever he said but please someone make my heart understand it and make it stop paining or else I have to go to the hospital and get admitted before it gives me more pain.

Can't we get our heart taken out yet still be alive?

Wow, I can't believe you sometimes.

Like I can?

Why not just die? Nah, I am not that weak. I laugh bitterly before I take a turn and the others comes in my view.
Before I could reach them, a hand pulls me back while leading me to some room.

Not wanting to fight, I stay quiet as he closes the door and slams me in the wall, looking angry.

You think people who kill themselves are weak? Mingyu asks me causing me to wonder from where this topic came.

You just said that moments ago to yourself that dying is a weak thing.

Right.

Wh--

I heard you, Tzuyu. Mingyu says in a firm voice causing me to shiver a little in front of him.

Why are you hurt? Because of your sister? You didn't even shed a fucking tear and now here you are looking all hurt, huh?! Who gave you the right to be sad? I have never seen such an emotionless person in my life, Mingyu. NOW, FUCK OFF!

I never knew I could be this harsh. Now, I feel guilty but there is not even one emotion of guilt or sadness on his face, so, why should I feel guilty?

I did loved her. Why do everyone thinks it's easy to be me? I mean yeah, I don't feel much pain but what I do is more than what you feel in a year. For me the pain of your one year is of one day. Just imagine, how hard it is, you get that! And for me dying isn't a way of saying I am weak. It's a way of saying you want to be free from this hell. He yells back at me and believe me, the hatred and pain I saw in his eyes was the most emotions, I have seen in him till yet.

Then die. I push him away from me and walk out of the room.

Did we just fought? I ask myself, dumbfounded.

We haven't even started dating yet and we already fought. Just this shows how wrong we are for each other. When will he understand this?

Gotta go. Something came up. I say to Jun before walking out and not looking back when I hear Lisa and others calling my name two three times in a row.

How can I let a boy rule my heart? I mean, I don't have any problem with it but how can I let a taken boy rule my heart?

Unlocking my car, I sit inside and sigh heavily before repeating the harsh words I said to him.

Don't be guilty.

You already are.

I repeat this again and again but in the end I am guilty. I turn the engine on and start to drive, as I was about to leave, a structure of a boy suddenly jumped in front of my car causing me to stop the car instantly after seeing him.

The car stops with a thud as my head collides with the steering wheel which my hands clutch tightly and tears leaves my eyes furiously afraid of something bad. I wasn't hurt or afraid of how much hurt I got instead I was afraid of how hurt was he?

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