La Muñeca

Unsteady

Song: Unsteady - X - Ambassadors

"I'm not.................
What I seem. I ran away from my rapist when I saw her walking in las calles,on the street alone desperately crying. But she was so strong, I need her more than anything. To save me. I was selfish."

                For that moment I realize I was digging my own grave but worse part I wanted for the forceful impacted that would land in my body. Pain I became too custom. I love him I didn't want him to let go but I just confessed my ultimate sin. My confession of my own selfishness.
I looked back to road saw his house at far distance praying I'll be back to arms that kept me safe.
But at the point as I let go out of the unsteady breath welcoming death once again. I prayed to her again.
'Please I do not know how much more I can handle, I beg you Santa Muerte. Not any more.'
But by the time I done silently praying I find peace in his blue eyes.
It felt as if hours passed by and nothing g escape his lips. I closed my eyes memorizing the last time I'll see him again. I re-live our moment over and over again in my head. I love him and I didn't want him to let go but reality set in.
I wasn't who he thought I was and he had every intention to let me go where he found me.

A sigh finally escape from him as I squeeze my way tighter, I felt the warmest of his big hands reach cupping my face.
For a moment I leaned to right memorizing his soft touch before our goodbyes.
His thumbs slowly caressed my cheeks, "Open your eyes."
A soft lovely tone escape with each word as if 'I love you' was replaced with each word.
My lips shiver at the fear of seeing disappointment on his face.
"Nothing matters but right now but us. To be honest this is the happiness, I've ever seen her. You bring great joy to everyone."
For a quickly moment my heart beat so hard I twitch from the love he gave me.
Soft words that filled me up like a starving child. Simple words.
Who would known I would experience real unconditional love.

                "Let me take you to my home, I want you both to move in. We'll figure out what will be the next step, Si?"

He smiled knowing when he spoke Spanish in his Texan gringo it always made me giggle.