Crumbling leader p.o.v
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I keep leaving myself notes. Reminding me to stay strong. I can't help them beilive me I want too. I just need to focus on myself for a bit. Yesterday one of the boys got arrested. I've gotten in trouble with him before so I couldnt say much. I bailed him out and now he's off to god knows where. One of them is now my neibor sense he burnt his god damn house down. He yells so loud i can hear him when my house is quite fat from his for his words to even be eligible.
Another just got released from the hospital for slitting his wrists and another got realesed after an overdose. My once sane friend can no longer deter imagination from reality and the last I just recently forced to eat a meal and keep it down. I'm the only sane one. I have to stay that way for the sake of Bangtan and the sake of all of us in general.
I'm so worried about them but I cant help them. I need to make sure I stay stable before I try to stabilize them. Am I a bad leader? Am I helping them? I hope so. Hope is all I have left that and strength. Am I a bad person?
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Silent misery (BTS depression story)
FanfictionBTS has issues and its eating at them. Can they make it? Can they get better? Will it end in death? (Lots of fan theories that inspired this story so if your into that this book is perfect for you enjoy)
