I feel like I play the victim in every argument. I think I just do it because I want people to feel bad for me. Because like, my last relationship probably wasn't even as bad as I make it out to be. And what I did to E was really terrible and I should have just sucked it up. And my eating disorder isn't even that bad I just skip a meal every now and then. And my dad and his girlfriend aren't even that bad they just get mad because I'm stupid.
Uh so on a different note my stutter is getting worse. I was trying to tell my dad about something but I couldn't get the sentence out. Also, I was talking to Ele about my two crushes. He doesn't know that he's one of them but Talyn and I are pretty sure he has a hunch. Anyways, I was telling him that one of them (aka Ele) has a significant other and that I'm pretty sure he's straight but he kept telling me to go for it anyways. So yeah. I'm probably gonna see him again this Friday at a football game. He might go with us back to Talyn's house to have a Mario kart tournament. Talyn said that if I lost I would be his slave. I never agreed to it. Imeanimnotobjectingthough.
My hair is almost completely faded. It's very blonde and pastel. I'm gonna wear a neutral color outfit tomorrow so I'm gonna look really pathetic and soft.
YOU ARE READING
I'm trans and problematic
RandomThis is my second journal about being trans. Don't even both reading. I'll probably be dead in a week or two anyways. *trigger warning for the first few chapters*