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I'm trans and problematic

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This is my second journal about being trans. Don't even both reading. I'll probably be dead in a week or two anyways. *trigger warning for the first few chapters*

#boyf #boyfriend #eatingdisorder #food #gay #gsa #imsuchathirstyho #killmyself #lgbt #lgbtq #lonely #mental #mentalillness #pan #problems #rant #riend #sad #saga #suicide #trans #transgender #trigger #triggerwarning #vent

So here's where I'm at mentally

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by whyamIalivelol

I didn't eat dinner and I'm happy about it.

I can't get up from my floor.

I don't have motivation to respond to my texts.

My sister graduates tomorrow and we're having lunch but I don't want to go because a social situation sounds horrible and I don't want to have a breakdown.

I'm pretty sure fhat my friend doesn't trust me.

I know that's spelling mistakes but I just can't gix them.

Honestly if I die tonight I wouldn't be suprised.

I'm supposed to tell My dad when I'm suicidal but I'm not suicidal because I don't want to actively try to lull myself I just really want it to happen. Like, it's to the point wheee I hope I fall out of my bed and strangle myself in a blanket.

lol how ironic would it be if I hung myself with one of my flags.