She Should Feel

Third book? Questions?

I know.

I know you're mad.

You want to drop this series.

Please don't.

I get it, I've been the reader. I am the reader.

But I have my reasons.

On Wattpad suicide and depression and anxiety is romanticized. It shows that love will conquer all. But that's not always true. Some affection isn't going to fix them, they aren't going to suddenly be happy. The reason I made the book like this was because life isn't always a happy ending. People can know that they're loved, and they can see people care and still leave.

Depression is not romantic.

Suicide is not pretty.

And it's all very real.

I'm sorry for not making this happy, but I always write happy. I needed reality. You can hate this book series, but this isn't supposed to spare your feelings, it's supposed to make you feel. It's supposed to make you cry, feel hate and love. You're supposed to fall in love with El or Josh or even Joanne. You're supposed to be able to relate. To understand that you are not alone.

For the chapter where Josh finds her, I just feel as if I couldn't write about it. I tried to keep it simple. I'm sorry if I let you guys down.

As for a third book, that is up to you guys.

I already wrote a few chapters.

It will be based around Josh and Joanne and how they handle her death.

The book will have flashbacks of El, and I may even consider doing an alternative ending to this one. It's all up to you guys. But I want the full experience to be put out there. The before, the during and the after. I want it all.

Please let me know how you feel about this book series.

And if you cried.

I know I did writing the last chapter.

This book was an honor to write.

Took me four years but I finally finished the ending I wanted to leave off on.

Now I have to write one more book.

Let the fun begin.

And again, I'm sorry.