I tried to calm my self but I can't. I walked out the gym. They are busy that they didn't even noticed me running away.
I'm mad at myself for letting this happen. I'm causing too much pain for myself. I shouldn't be mad at him but I can't control my self. He don't owe me an explanation. I don't even know the status of this shitty relationship.
I went to the rooftop to let my feelings out. The rough wind on my face and the harsh sun rays on my skin is the only thing that comfort me.
After a minute, I heard the glass door opened and the harsh foot steps on my back. I slowly turned around. He stopped when he saw me.
"Baby.." Nakitaan ko ng gulat at pag aalala ang mga mata nito. He walked slowly.
"Don't come near me." I said in a shaking voice. Then I saw darkness in his dark brown eyes. Lumapit lalo siya at umatras naman ako.
That's what I did until I felt the hard wood table on my back. I sighed. Kakaiyak ko kanina hindi ko na napansin ang kagandahan ng rooftop. It's has wood tables and chairs and plants all over. It's a combination of wood and glass architecture.
"Are you okay? What happened? Why are you crying?" Sunod sunod na tanong nito at marahan na pinunasan ang luha ko. Iniwas ko ang mukha ko at panibagong luha nanaman ang pumatak. Niyakap nya ako ng mahigpit pero kumalas ako doon.
"Sinungaling ka! You lied to me! A-akala ko ako lang! Bakit kasi ang daya mo! Ang daya daya mo!" I cried so hard habang hinahampas ang dibdib nito. Hinayaan nya ako gawin iyon.
"Pwede mo namang sabihin na isa ako sa mga babae mo! Na isa lang din ako sa mga pampalipas oras mo! Na kapag nag sawa ka dun sa isa ako ang lalandiin mo. I'm not gonna be your bitch-"
"What the Fuck are you talking about? and why would I lie to you? Fuck I said I don't have any other girl. Why don't you trust me." He cursed softly.
"Look at me." Marahan nyang tinaas ang baba ko. Sinunod ko naman ito. I can sense that he's hurt, but I'm hurt too.
"Where did you hear those fucking stories?" Tanong nito at mukhang nakuha na ang problema ko. I'm a bit calm now but my small cries won't escape. Umiling ako at tumayo na para umalis.
"We're not yet done talking. Sit down." He commanded. But I'm Dainielle Alvarez and I don't want to follow your rules. Kaya umalis pa din ako.
"Ughh" I heard him growled. At mabilis akong hinila nito papunta sa malilom na parte ng rooftop.
"Ano ba Ricci nasasaktan ako!" Pag piglas ko sa mahigpit na hawak nito. Pero wala siyang sinabi at nag patuloy lang ito sa pag hila sakin hanggang makarating kami sa sulok na table. Pinaupo niya ako roon sa lamesa at siya ay nakatayo lang sa harap ko.
"Tell me what's bothering you." He looked so serious. His full attention is on me now.
Tinuon nya mga kamay nya sa magkabilang gilid ko para mag pantay ang tingin namin. Sobrang lapit nya saakin na hindi ako makabuo ng salita. Lumayo ako ng konti at marahan siyang tinulak. He looked so shock with my sudden move. He's about to get closer again pero tumingala ito at mariing pinikit ang mga mata na parang may naalala. Did he remember my "I don't want clingy boys." line? I pouted.
"I will. Just promise me you won't come closer to me.." I said slowly. I bit my lower lip. And his attention are on my lips now. I cleared my throat. He looked at me seriously.
"I promise." His husky voice is killing me.
"I-i heard someone.. talking about her sister and you. Kissing in a bar.. And me being your side chic." Dumaan ulit ang sakit at pait ng nararamdaman ko kaya nag iwas ako ng tingin dito.
