Trembling Memories Of The Time

Chapter 16

Yunnie's POV

Three months later.

"Yunnie, aren't you eating too much?" Am I? I didn't notice that, I think it's just my normal. I'm not really giving it a thought and a care because I'm just here inside of the house. Also, I feel like not doing anything, my body is becoming more lazy day by day.

"Yeah, for the last past months, you've been craving a lot and....oh my god! Your belly is getting fat!" What? I touched it immediately and checked if it is really getting fat. And it is! Gosh, what have I been doing that I gained this much fats? Am I slacking so much?

"No, I don't think it's a fat. Craving? Then suddenly vomiting? Are you both crazy? She's obviously pregnant." What? Me? Pregnant? With Ryle's baby? Of course! He's the only man I've had a sex with!

I'm happy....but he probably doesn't want it since it's mine. He hates me, disgusted by me. He will probably won't accept it. I'm scared of the fact that my thoughts will turn into reality.

"Just to be sure let's go and see an obgyn." Stacy drove the car to the nearest hospital. I'm nervous but happy at the same time. The familiar smell of a hospital welcomed my nose but I came here with a different intention

Luckily there's no much patients here today. The less people the better. Someone who knows might see me but I doubt that someone from here knows me.

I took a pregnancy test just like the doctor said. She did a few test just to be sure that my body is okay. She even checked my stomach ask a lot of questions.

The result was positive. I'm pregnant. I saw how happy the two and I'm also happy even though, I need to raise them by myself. I'm just sad about one thing and that is, they won't have a father by their side while growing up.

Don't worry, Yunnie, you just need to love them. Double the love and give my best even though, I will become a single mom there's still someone to help me raise them.

"Mrs. Rodriguez, you need to comeback next month for your check up and ultra sound." I'm not using his name. If I use his name then it will lave a record here then if he conducted an investigation there's a possibility that he might find me.

"Okay, Dr. Thank you." I went outside of her office and met the two in the waiting area. They said, they don't want yo come in because they might faint from the news they wil hear. I even laughed at them for overacting.

They are just standing and waiting for me, base on their expression they are nervous. That is funny because I've never seen them this nervous.

"I'm pregnant." I gave them a big smile and their expressions says everything.

"O.M.G! Congrats! Waaa, I'm going to be a godmother!" Mae walked in a hurry and touched my belly as gentle as she can.

"Oh, baby, hi! I'm your godmother." She sounds so happy and excited. I wonder if it's Ryle, would he react this way? Or will he show a regretful expression?

"Congrats, Yunnie. I'll be an auntie now. So excited." She lowered her head and touched my stomach. These two has a great expression on their faces that gives me a light feeling. Somehow, I felt a relieving feeling in my system.

"I'm excited to see you. Be healthy, okay?" They're both happy. I'm glad that they are beside me despite of all the problems I gave them.

Their eyes are both sparkling. Haha, it's like they are the parents. I like how they reacted. God, I want it to be Ryle's.

I want to see him jump from happiness. I want to see him cry from excitement. I want to see him bead

When we got home Stacy said she needs to go to the grocery store to buy us some foods, Mae was left here to stay with me. One of them has to stay beside me according to their discussion.

"Yunnie, you need to be extra careful now." Yeah, I unconsciously smile because of the thought that my little kids will be as cute as their father. I wonder what features they will inherit from us.

"Yeah." I gently rubbed my belly. " I will do my best to restrain myself. "

"But, I'm really glad about your pregnancy. " Me too. "Do you plan to tell him?" There's no point on telling him this. The outcome is really obvious of course, he will chase us away.

"No, I don't want him to say that he doesn't want my kid. It will hurt them." What if they grew up and got curious about their father? What would I tell them? That he got abandoned and his father doesn't like him because his mother is a killer? No......I can't do that.

"I'll support your decision." The whether is quite good and my whole day is smooth, nothing bad happened and I received my early gift but there's a slightly heavy rock on top of my chest.

"Hmm, I'm going in my room. I'm suddenly sleepy." I'm always sleepy these last past months.

If ever I will see Ryle and approach him, he will surely throw me away again. I love him but he doesn't love me anymore. That's what I clearly heard from his own mouth.

I remember our vow. He vowed to love me and my mistake. He vowed to stay with me no matter what. I'm a fool for believing his words.

Sigh. Married but only in papers. What a funny life, I should have thought that I will neer change from my past.

I need to do an immediate decision. A decision that will make sense at least.

I know it will hurt but I'll be the one to bring him.......the divorce papers. Right. It will hurt less on my side.

That's the right decision. I can't let him say hurtful words to my unborn child. I'm selfish ain't I?

But I'm a mother who would die protecting her kid from any possible harm that will occur.

I gently rubbed my belly. "I will protect you in any harm." Baby, let mama say her apology now. I'm sorry that your mama is not like the other mamas out there. I'm sorry that your mama is bad. But mama will try her best to shield you from anyone.

Mama loves you.

Please, be healthy. Grew up a fine kid.