Trembling Memories Of The Time

Chapter 20

Yunnie's POV

I'm currently at the hospital where my brother is. He really looks like in a critical condition. Full of bruises and cast on his body. He really had it hard, I bet he was caught off guard or he was outnumbered but it doesn't matter as long as he knows how many he's facing. So, it's more likely that he was caught off guard.

My hands are itching again and the wind is whispering to my ears. We're not close to each other but he's still my brother whom I treasure too.

Queenie is already moving while I'm waiting for her report.

"Yunnie, we need to kill all those fuckers." I can sense Mae's rage. Her clenching fist and gritting teeth. Of course, I'm gonna fuck their lives hard that they won't be able to stand again.

"I'll give you the head of the leader."

"Oh, that would be helpful." Helpful for what? Easing your rage?

I will definitely gonna kill them.

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It's been five days but Queenie has no lead yet. They are hiding pretty good. Those rats are enjoying their little hole of junk.

"Mama, when are we gonna visit dad?" Raylie was pulling my clothes with his cute expression. Gosh, it is really ain't good for my heart.

We are currently at the company. I don't have a choice but to take them with me since my mom and dad are busy taking care of my brother and Stacy needs to help Queenie while Mae can't protect these three all by herself. I need her to help me protect them.

"Soon, baby. We will visit papa when I'm done with work." I kissed his head.

"Okay, Mama." There's a slight of bitterness in his tone but what can I do? I just can't suddenly show in front of him with three kids.

Kaylie and Kraylie are both sitting obediently while making themselves busy with books.

And this has been my routine since five days ago. Going to company with the kids then go home immediately or else someone might notice me.

If this continues like this it's a fifty-fifty chance that I might bump with Ryle one of these days. I'm avoiding that to happen, I'm not yet ready.

But I don't think my eyes are playing tricks on me. I even blinked four times and gulp my own saliva twice.

Am I seeing this one for real or have I gone mad for real this time? I'm pretty sure this isn't my hallucinations, I'm not an addict.

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Ryle's POV

I stood up as soon as I received a report from my men that I hired, recommended by my brother. It was about Yunnie, they have an information about her coming back in the Philippines.

"Yes, sir. Someone spotted your wife entering a hospital three days ago but she suddenly disappeared afterwards." She's maybe in their house.

I stood up in a hurry and put on my coat.

I'm about to leave my office but I came into a realization. I can't just go and see her after what happened. I sighed and sat back on my swivel chair.

I should make a proper plan to meet her. Maybe by contacting her lawyer through my lawyer.

I need to see her and check how she was.

In just two days I prepared myself to see her in her brother's company. Her location had been more clear when she went there multiple times already since I put someone around the company to check if it's really her.

This time, I won't make the same mistake I did before.

I went in the parking lot and rode my car. I plan to go to her today. And I'm so nervous that only I can hear is my heart pounding heavily. It's like racing with my car.

I parked my car in their parking lot and entered the building. I sighed once before coming in.

The secretary let me in because I have an appointment. Though, I used a different name.

I saw her standing and looking at me with a confuse expression. She is just standing but not opening her mouth to talk. I know that she's mad at me.

"W-what are you doing h-here?" I can see her hands trembling but she hid it behind her.

"I'm sorry." That's my first words to her. "Yunnie, I was wrong.........I was wrong to chase you away. I shouldn't have done that. I regretted everything I said back then. I tried to search for you but you're nowhere to be found. I didn't even sign the divorce papers." I can see her doubting but more confuse.

I can't blame her since it's my fault. I'm even anxious now because I can't read her expression nor her thoughts.

"W-why? You should not be sorry. I-it's my fault. I.....I kil—"

"Mama, why are you crying?" A child hugged her leg and also starting to tear up. Who is this kid? He just called her mama. And he is adorable hugging Yunnie's leg.

The kids' face....... Resemble mine. I looked at him intently just yo check if I'm seeing it right but yes! It's a carbon copy!

"Did he made you cry, Mama?" He pointed at me with ahm, was that a glare with hatred? Because I think it is. He is looking at with anger.

"No, baby, we're just talking about adult stuff. You should go and play with your sister and brother." He has siblings? So, she got another man? Am I too late? But that kid looks like me!

"Is he our papa?" Another kid came near her. A little lady with a blank expression while looking at me. Her too! She does look like me but a girl version! But wait, she doesn't know their father? Am I..... The father?

"Maybe, he does look like Raylie." Another one came near her. A little man with a bored look on his face while holding his book. He looks like Yunnie.

"Ah, babies, were talking about adult things so you should go and pl—"

"Are they my kids?" I want to know if they are because I will be the biggest bastard if they are really my kids. How could I throw her away like that without thinking about this?

"Mama." The last kid to appear has a teary expression.

"So, he's really our papa." The little lady came near me and put her hands up. I reached for it and carried her. She hugged me tight and I can hear her sobbing.

"Mama, you really introduced us to papa." The little man run towards me and hugged my leg. He even dropped his book.

I can almost feel my tears but I'm holding it back. Though, I don't think I can because it fell the moment I heard him cry on my leg. His gripped is tight and it's like he doesn't want to let go of me.

"Raylie?" I looked at the first kid I saw but he's just standing there all straight. I can't read his expression, just luke Yunnie's.

"I wanted to see him not because I want to know him but to say something to him personally." I felt a sudden chill. " I hate him." My system crumbled by those words. "He's disgusting." Those words are my words to Yunnie, seven years ago. That pierced my chest and it hurts like hell.

"R-raylie? Aren't you excited about meeting your papa?" Yunnie crouched down.

"The fact that he abandoned Mama while she's pregnant with us was enough reason for me to hate him." I'm..... I don't know what to say. All my courage has left my body.

This little guy has a huge impact on me.

"N-no, baby, there's a reason for that. Didn't I told you that papa was just very busy with work?" Busy? Has she been saying that to them as an excuse for me? After what I've done with her? She's still.... Care for me?

My tears fell continuously.

"I know that Mama was lying but Ice believed you. Mama, that's all I want to say to him. I wanna go home." His tone was the same as mine years ago. The despise in his eyes is nostalgic and the way he reacted to me makes me want to fall on the cliff.

He turned his back on us and sat on the sofa. Being hated by my own son is really painful. Now I know what Yunnie felt that day. I'm......really regretting it now more than I already did.