"Is the break up between you and Park Chanyeol of Exo true?" I almost choked. I know that I cannot always avoid the rumor and I'm totally aware that I will be asked for it now. I prepared myself but I'm still taken aback. We had our relationship publicized but things happened and we broke up. It's still fresh like it just happened yesterday, maybe I love him too much that I cannot move on, it's been over a month but it still stings.
I cleared my throat and smiled before I answer the question.
"Yes.. It's true. We are over but, we remained friends." I heard the audiences grasps. I lied, after the break up I never saw him again, never heard of him. We had a bad break up. We fought and ended cutting our relationship. I restrained myself from tearing, I don't want him to see me weak.
"That's really sad to hear Y/N-ah, I'm one of your fans and I supported your relationship, It's really heartbreaking hearing that from you." I did not replied but just smiled to her.
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Chanyeol's Pov
It's our free day and we're just here in our dorm. I lazily joined the guys watching tv. I raised my brow as they all look at me wide eyed. I shrugged my shoulders because they're watching Y/N's guesting in a talkshow. They are all aware of our fight and break up. Suho changed the channel which made my brows furrowed.
"Hyung, there's no need to do that." then he turned back the channel. I heard all of them let out a deep sighs. We continued to watch her.
"Is the break up between you and Park Chanyeol of Exo true?" I held my breathe as I waited her to answer the question.
"Yes.. It's true. We are over but, we remained friends." she answered. All of the guys looked at me with such pity stares. Because I can no longer take it, I stood up and left to my room. I locked the door and laid in bed.
It's been 1 month and 5 days. I missed her. What she said in her interview is wrong, it's a bad break up.
Flashback
She's staying in a condominium, and sometimes I sleep here. Tonight after our practise I went here straight from Sm ent. I waited for here in her room. I was about to fall asleep when her phone rang.
"Tsk, such a clumsy girl. She left her phone again." I reached for her phone from the bedside table. My brows knotted as I read the message from Lee Jung Suk, he's the actor Y/N worked with from her latest movie.
"I had a great time Y/N-ah. Goodnight." that's what the message read. I felt my blood boil and ran going to my head. I admit I was jealous with this actor because I know that y/n has a crush on him before she debuted as an actress. I was really mad and furious as I waited for her in the living room.
After a few minutes she arrived.
"Chanyeollie."she greeted me and kissed my cheeks but I did not moved, I'm still very angry.
"What's the problem chanyeol?" she chuckled as she noticed me stiffed. I picked her phone and let her read the message.
"Oh! Yeah uhm before I went home he invited me for a coffee. But it's just quick chanyeol." She held my hand and i removed it.
"Why are you stuterring?" I still didn't face her. She held my face.
"Because I know your mad and jealous.But chanyeol there's no need for that it's just a friendly meet up. And I love you, it's only you that I love. Please?" she reasoned but I'm still boiling with jealousy.
"I know before me, you have already a crush on him. so your taking advantage of working with him and getting close to him?" I know I hurt her with those words, I regretted saying those but it's too late. I felt her hands slowly gliding down from my face. I heard her sobs.
"So all this time, that's what you think of me. You think that I'm that kind of girl?" awkward silence " You know what? This won't work. I love you Chanyeol, I really do but this is enough. I can't continue with this relationship if you don't trust me and thinking that I'm like a dirty girl. Let's break up." I cannot look at her. It hurts me knowing I was the reason of her tears. But because I am such an idiot jerk, I stood up.
"Fine! Let's break up." That's what the words that came out from my mouth. I got my bag and left her there crying.
Reminiscing that day always made me think that I'm such a total bastard. I had attempted to contact her or go to her place multiples times, but everytime I do that I will be defeated with my cowardice and I am really ashamed.
