NP: Satisfied by Shawn Mendes
I was staring at the door now closed. He left almost an hour now.
We we're happy chatting about nonsense things. He came today since it's their free day. We are on my bed. We're not together but we do things that couples do. My room was filled with our laughs, I am using his arm as my pillow and our naked bodies covered with my duvet. I was telling him a funny story and he keeps on interrupting me, kissing me all over my face. His phone rang, I immediately looked into it that's on my bedside table just an arm away from me.
Rose calling...
I know we're not exclusive, we just do things without label but I know deep within me I'm slowly falling to Chanyeol and it's now too deep to recover.
I passed him the phone, I stood up from bed and grabbed my robe while he answers the call. It's so silent that I can hear her sobbing from the other line. I stride away from the room, I went inside the bathroom, let the water from the faucet fall preventing me from hearing their conversation. I didn't know how long I was inside when I heard knocks from the door.
"Y/N" chanyeol
"Hmmm?" I turned off the faucet and wiped the tear stain on my cheeks. I let a fake smile before I opened the door. He is now fully dressed.
"I need to go." He said and all I can do is nod.
Now sitting on my bed, reminding myself why he left. Caressing the sheets that smells like him, crying calling out his name.
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Rose and Chanyeol we're ex couple. I know he knows that I get jealous everytime he will ditch me because Rose needs him but whatever he will say, I will be melted like an ice under the sun.
"We're just friends." He spoke after an awkward silence.
"I'm not asking." I replied emotionless.
"I know, but you need to know it. You're special to me and as much as I like seeing your cute pouting face, I want to assure you that she doesn't mean anything to me other than a friend." Him while getting my hand to his lips.
Weeks after he left me for Rose, he came to my apartment after their rehearsal. And just like that, after hating him, with just his sweet words, everything seems easy to forget.
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Currently scanning channels, when Chanyeol came and stumbled inside my apartment. I quickly helped him got up.
"Hey!" He smiled but eyes are bloodshot. Breath smells like vodka.
"You're wasted." I said as a matter of fact while leading him to the couch.
He sat down, arms spread on the couch, head bent staring at the ceiling. I just stood in front of him arms crossed on my chest, waiting for him to speak.
He started sobbing, tears now flowing from his eyes.
"Rose." He whispered but enough for me to hear. I wanted to cry also, she's still the one after all. I let him take his time, I didn't speak nor came close to him.
"She's getting married." He laughed and cried. His hands now on his face. Shoulders shaking because of crying. I can't take seeing him like this, until my tears came rushing. I cried standing looking at him frustrated. I don't know if I'm hurt for the fact that he still love Rose or because it's me who doesn't mean anything to him or I pity him seeing so helpless or maybe all?
"I love her so much, but everything's too late." He continued that made my heart ripped into pieces. I can't come close him anymore, I know we don't have a label but I'm tired getting hurt.
I dialled Suho's number. After a couple of rings, he answered.
"Y/N-ah?" Suho
"Can you fetch Chanyeol here in my apartment Oppa?" I right away said trying to hide my muffled voice.
"Why? What happened to him?" His voice is concerned.
"He's wasted." I replied nonchalantly.
"But, I mean it's our free day and I thought he will stay there?" Him
"I don't know. Can you please get him?" I wanted to sob but I forced not to.
"Yea..yeah sure. I'm coming." He answered unsure.
Chanyeol is now asleep on the couch. I was pacing back and forth waiting for Suho when the doorbell rang. I immediately opened it and saw Suho with Baekhyun. They look at me but I turned my back immediately, avoiding for them to notice my bloodshot eyes. I felt them followed me and attended Chanyeol.
I was just standing looking at them trying to get him up. Suho tapped Chanyeol's cheeks and he murmured.
"I love you Rose." They seemed to froze and stare up at me. I turned my head away, tears now flowing.
"Please take him with you." I said my voice now cracking.
They didn't respond, I turned my face to them. Chanyeol's now standing,leaning on suho's shoulder still eyes closed. Suho's face expression says all the worries he have for me but never spoke. Baekhyun walked towards me and caressed my back, because I am crying like sh** now.
"I will be fine. Thank you." I said to both of them and stormed going to my room, I just heard the door closed, they're gone, he's gone.
He is my sunshine but I can't keep myself get hurt. I love him but I can't continue if I'm destroying myself believing he will love me like I wanted him to.
