Second part of "When"
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Stirring my coffee when my doorbell rang.
"Hmm, who would it be? I'm not expecting someone right now."
I opened the door and my knees wobbled. The man I've been aching to touch is infront of me.
"Chanyeol? What are you doing here?" I asked but he stood still, I can smell liqour from him.
"Were you drinking?--" then he suddenly cupped my face and clashed his lips unto mine.
I tried to push him, but he is strong and I'm weak with his kiss and touch. We ended in my bedroom, me underneath him screaming his name while we made love.
"Hey, goodmorning. I made breakfast." I said when I saw him opened his eyes.
"I need to go, we still have a shoot later." He said coldly without even throwing a single glance.
"Ok." I replied weakly and just looked at him wearing back his clothes.
That night was followed by another one and more. He is still with Rosé but I let him inside everynight. I know I'm being a whore but this is the only thing I see to make him love me again.
I've been so madly and stupidly in love with him that I became a pathetic bitch, I posted on instagram a picture of Chanyeol topless lying on his stomach, covered only with a white sheet underneath, with a caption.
"Warm nights with you."
Eventhough I didn't put or tag his name on it, but it's clearly him. Exposing myself as his whore. I did it on purpose without him knowing, I wanted them to break apart, I wanted Rosé to hate him. I never thought of the outcome it may affect to me, I was blinded with what I thought was love. Truth be told, they separated but Chanyeol didn't chose me either.
"I won't ever forgive you for ruining us." His last words.
He didn't know he also ruined me by coming into my house every night when she's not around, but because I was drowned by this so called love, I begged him to stay with me. But, he no longer loves me, he just used me because I'm always there when he needed me.
My career was put at stake. But I didn't care, he's all I needed.
A month after, they announced their engagement. I tried to take my own life, luckily God saved me. That's when I woke up and realized everything. I learned to forget him and forgive myself. I went on a psychiatrist and overcome my depression. I started to compose and make songs again.
Now they are married, I'm happy that I didn't feel pain anymore.
