"I love you Chanyeol, but this won't work. There's no day that we'll not fight. It's no longer healthy. I'm sorry but I give up. Goodbye!"
Those were her last words before she left. We're a year and a half in a relationship and after our anniversary we decided to live together. The first few months were heavenly but later it became bitter. We fight almost every time. She getting jealous, me doesn't have enough time to spend with her, so many reasons and we ended apart. And now it's been a month that she left. I no longer live in this apartment, I don't wanna torture myself because I miss her so bad. I stayed back in our dorm. From time to time I visit the apartment when I want to feel her, the boys said that i should sell the unit but I can't, this is the only thing I have, with her memories.
I stood up from the couch and walked towards the wide glass window facing the busy street of Seoul, I heaved a sigh as I stared at my reflection, before it's our both reflection I can see but now it's only mine. She loved looking at the city lights with me, talking about our future and everything that will come up in our minds.
I picked the wine of glass and gulped it one time. I didn't know I was already tearing, I slid down, my back at the window, on my knees my both hands are on my head.
"Y/N.. I miss you, miss you so bad that it hurts!" I kept on repeating his name, crying.
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Waiting here for someone
Only yesterday we were on the run
You smile back at me and your face lit up the sun
Now I'm waiting here for someone
And oh, love, do you feel this rough?
Why's it only you I'm thinking of
My shadow's dancing
Without you for the first time
My heart is hoping
You'll walk right in tonight
And tell me there are things that you regret
'Cause if I'm being honest I ain't over you yet
It's all I'm asking
Is it too much to ask?
Is it too much to ask?
Someone's moving outside
The lights come on and down the drive
I forget you're not here when I close my eyes
Do you still think of me sometimes?
And oh, love, watch the sun coming up
Don't it feel fucked up we're not in love
My shadow's dancing
Without you for the first time
My heart is hoping
You'll walk right in tonight
And tell me there are things that you regret
'Cause if I'm being honest I ain't over you yet
It's all I'm asking
Is it too much to ask?
My shadow's dancing
Without you for the first time
My heart is hoping
You'll walk right in tonight
And tell me there are things that you regret
'Cause if I'm being honest I ain't over you yet
My shadow's dancing
Without you for the first time
My heart is hoping
You'll walk right in tonight
And tell me there are things that you regret
'Cause if I'm being honest I ain't over you yet
It's all I'm asking
Is it too much to ask?
It's all I'm asking
Is it too much to ask?
It's all I'm asking
Is it too much to ask?
I finally finished my new composition. I let the other guys listen to it. After hearing it I just heard their 'tsks' in unison. Xiumin stood up and tapped my back.
"Chanyeol, I know it's hard but you need to let go." He said.
"Yes hyung, I may not be in the right place to say but you need to move on." Sehun looking at me.
"You need to face that your story has ended already." Suho
"We know that it hurts, the pain is unbearable but you need to feel it because that's what pain demands." baekhyun, I almost laughed because that's a quote from a book.
"We're always here to support you but it's only you who can help yourself." Lay
"She already left you. You need to remember that." Kai
"You will find someone else, may not be like her but someone who will love you with all your flaws and imperfections." Chen
I know were getting dramatic when D.O stood up,stared at us and rolled his eyes.
"I'm sorry but this is too disgusting!" then he walks out. We were left dumbfounded.
