Call Me Chase

chapter 4

Chase's POV:

I stepped into the car and buckled myself in. I knew that this was going to be a long ride. Although the doctor office was only a 10 minute drive from the house, it would feel long, listening to my mom lecture. But that didnt happen. We drove for five minutes before i questioned the silence.
"Mom whats wrong" i looked at her, i knew she had something to say.
"I do not want to discuss this until after the results" her voice wavered but she kept her eyes firmly on the road in front of us.
4 minutes.
"Mom talk to me just a little" i wanted to know what was going through her head. What to expect. I wasnt getting much from her though.
"Im upset Chasity of course. Why didnt you tell me about this, i would have set you up to be safe a long time ago. I just, i dont know what to do with you anymore" she was upset, and you know i get it. How could she not be, her baby girl mightve been pregnant. God, i still hope im not pregnant...
I escaped my mind and took a deep breath, theres no way right?
2 minutes
"Its going to be fine mom, we were safe... its not possible... right mom?"she didnt respond to me. I wasnt quite sure if it was because she didn't know either or if she really was mad at me for this.
We got to to doctor office and mom found a place to park the car.
"Lets go chasity. Now." Mom grabbed her purse and keys and started walking ahead. When we got there we were relieved to discover that the doctor was able to see me right away.
I asked my mom to wait in the lobby and i would see her when i was done.
*in the exam room*
Dr Metcalfe: So Chasity-
Chase: Please, call me Chase. I.. actually dont identify as female..
Dr M: Oh, my apologies Chase, i hear that there is a possibility that you are carrying a baby?
Chase: that cant be we were using protection
Dr M: when having sex there is always a chance for having a baby. Its super unlikely but still possible. Pregnancy is tough, and Id assume itd be tougher on a teenage boy of all, so we can discuss your options.
Chase: no no i dont want to think about it till i know
Dr M: fair enough Chase. Lets check this out.
*fast forward*
Dr M: okay Chasi- Chase, do you want your mother in the room when i tell you the results?
Chase: No i will tell her, and my boyfriend on my own
Dr M: okay well, are you ready for the results?
Chase: as ready as i can ever get... im scared
Dr M: you, are 6 weeks pregnant
Chase: What!!? Im not ready for this i dont think drew is ready for this
Dr M: maybe discuss this with your mom and boyfriend and we can make a decision
Chase: no im keeping the baby. This is my fault and i dont believe in abortion.
Dr M: okay well Chase, make a second appointment in the front office and I'll see you in a few weeks. Good luck.

I left the exam room and made a second appointment. I had a text from my mom saying she was out in the car. I went out and got into the car in silence. How was I supposed to tell her i was having a baby? I would talk to Drew first maybe
"Mom do you want to know?" I looked at her
"Talk to Drew first, he deserves to know whether or not you are ruining his life first"
"Mom a baby isnt going to ruin either of our lives. Maybe make it harder but this baby isnt going to ruin me and i wont let it. And im keeping it whether you agree or not!" I was crying now. I wasnt sad i was just angry. I didn't understand why i was crying. Maybe it was hormones. Do you get hormone mood swings at 6 weeks? I looked over at my mom to see her react
"So you are pregnant"
"Yes mom im sorry i yelled at you"
"You should go to Drew's after we get home. Stay over there for tonight. He lives next door so you can just get what you need for the night after you tell him"
"Mom-"
"Dont talk i dont want to talk right now"
Her reaction made me scared of what Drew would say. He said he wanted the baby right? But i was afraid he'd change his mind upon knowing there really was a baby. Hopefully he accepts this and still loves me. Because if not i dont know where me and baby are going to stay tonight..
I put my hand on my stomach and stared out the window. Dreaming of the possibility of having a happy family with Drew. I don't know if this going to work out but i am praying for the best. Not for me, but for Baby.