Call Me Chase

Chapter 8

Chase's POV:

Fear. That was the feeling coursing through my veins as i made my way across into my mothers lawn. I wasnt sure i wanted to do this. I stepped onto the porch and closed my eyes.
Its time I said to myself silently. Although it didnt feel like it. This could change my course of life forever. My fate sat in her hands. I was afraid of being abandoned again. I took a deep breath and opened my eyes. I can do this. I knock on the door and hear my mother yell "Coming!" From somewhere inside the house. I took a deep breath as i heard the door unlock.
"Oh, Oh... um hey Chasity... come in..." she moved out of the way of the door and i stepped in. She had cleaned up the house. Was it all in my head or were there fewer pictures of me in the house? I took a sharp breath and sat down.
"So mom... we need to figure out what's going to happen... Can I come home or-" I stopped midsentence i was afraid. She moved her gaze towards her hands in her lap.
"Actually... Chasity this cant be your home anymore. You can't stay here"
My eyes began to fill with tears i began feeling a way that i havent felt in years.
"Youre Kicking Me Out!? Because Im having a baby" I began yelling. It wasn't anger or saddness. I felt the feeling of betrayal from the one person who was supposed to protect me.
"Chasity i cant do this right now"
Her tone was soft.
The feeling grew heavier as i heard her words pass through my ears.
"CAnt do what Mom!? Cant Deal With youre Pregnant Transgender Son!?"
I was yelling really loud now. I was pretty sure Drew and Sofia heard from next door.
"Chasity please" her voice was still soft but her tone was firm
"Chase mom Chase! Why cant you get that through youre fucking Head!"
I felt as though that dark feeling had taken me over. The devastation the hurt the betrayal.
"Youre Name Is Chasity You Are A Girl! I cant understand how you can deny that Youre pregnant and that scares me"
She was yelling now too. Not quite as loud as me. I know she had the anger you could only get from a disobedient child. But my feelings were so much more than that. They were heavier.
"So Youre Abandoning me!!! Youre going to just cut me out of youre life because youre afraid ! Because youre confused" i couldnt wrap my head around it. I was sobbing now. She said nothing, but her silence said a million words.
I looked at her and in between sobs i said quietly "youre just like dad" and with that i made my way to the door
"Chasity wait please" she called after me. But it was too late she had let me down. And did everything she promised she never would.
"Drew will text you before we come to get my things" i wasnt yelling anymore my voice was soft. She had broke my heart a thousand times worse than any break up could. I had just been hurt by the one who was supposed to protect me. My heart was broken by the person who took nine months to form it.
I stepped out and the door clicked behind me. I put my hand on my stomach and as i tear rolled down my cheek i whispered "you will never feel the pain that youre daddy feels right now baby. I promise you that"