Always is not. Every day is.

chapter 19

Allon's POV

I am sitting all relaxed on the couch wearing my new pair of denim jeans and white tank top when layken enters the living room all ready to go at her mother's place which is the last thing I want because of that person who took her security and soundness from her. Although she is changed now and has gained a lot of assertiveness and aplomb since the past few months but after Ryle's incident she is some sort of broken and ruptured even though she didn't mention what she felt but I know her and so do I know that a part of her is broken because of him and that is something completely understandable because that is what happens when a person's expectations are torn off and smashed. And as much as I am angry on him I can't do anything. What else do we expect from famous and celebrated people? They just want people running after them and so he thought of layken as one of the many people. I wonder what he did to her painting that she painted sitting all night up. After that day I haven't seen her paint anything and I won't even bother asking about it because I know her heart is all up from that thing she really knows how to do or let's say that thing in which she excel.

Art

"Hey why are you staring at me like that? I mean look at yourself you are looking like samara." She interrupts my thoughts.

"Huh, no. nothing. So you are leaving. Should I expect you at dinner? Like you I and Adam together can go somewhere." I ask.

"no I don't think I will reach that soon because mom will definitely make me have dinner with her plus I don't want to be a third wheel so I'll say that you two enjoy your time and most probably I will be back at about 10 pm moreover." She walk to the front door. I push myself from the couch and my thoughts too that are screaming at me not to let layken go in that house where she shouldn't be ever going back. I walk to the door as well and pull her to a tight hug inhaling the sweet smell of her strawberry shampoo.

"Come back soon okay? And do call me if you need me there."

"I will be good." She replied planting a kiss on my cheek and made her way to the car killing the engine and driving away.

Its 6 pm and I can't think of anything to do since Adam will be here after a few hours so I switch on the television and watch some shows for the next few hours.

When three hours pass without any text from Adam so I reach for my phone to call him but just then my phone starts ringing and ah it's Adam. I swipe the green button.

"Babes. Where in the world are you I am waiting for you since three hours. Are you even showing up?" I ask.

No reply. The other side of the phone is way too silent so I speak louder this time.

"Adam are you even there? Can you hear me?"

"Allon I want you to know something. Like like I want to tell you something that is really important." He sounds serious.

"Hmm. Say. Everything okay?" I reply not understanding the seriousness in his voice which never suits him.

"Allon I am so sorry but I can't continue our relationship" he say.

"Hahahaha! Nice joke but I am not in a mood so see you here okay? Text me when you are near I will order something because I am really hungry and I didn't cook anything. Okay? See you." I was about to end the call but then he say something that tear my heart wildly into million pieces.

"For god sake. I am not joking Allon. Damn it. I am not. I really can't continue this relation because my mom is making me get engaged to some girl Julianne who I know is the daughter of her business partner. I told you about her right? I even told you how much my mom wants to succeed in her business and she will do anything. I tried to inveigle her as much as I could And you know that I can't say no to her at all. I love her Allon I love her so much. I can't say no to her."

"And you don't love me?" I manage to deliver these words.

"I do. But she is more important Allon. You won't understand this because your own mom is dead now."

This isn't that Adam with whom I fell in love with.
"I am sorry if I am being rude but I need to explain this situation to you Allon. I cant."

Wow

My heart stops. Like. Stops.

"I am sorry Allon. Take care" And with this he ends the call.

I wanted to say that were you playing with me all this time. I wanted to say that it is your life and you are the one who needs to spend it the way you want it to be no other person including your mom can tell you how to spend it or can rule what is known as your life. I want to tell him that I am not some sort of second piece that he can leave me like this for the sake of her selfish introverted mother and her stupid business deals. I want to say so much more and I want to to scream loud and louder at him and tell him for what a bastard he is but instead I drop the phone.

I walk to the window stare outside and open my mouth to take in some fresh air but it seems like all of sudden the place around me is vacuum. The tears are rolling down my cheeks wetting my shirt. I know my eyes are getting smudgy but I don't give a fuck about it and my mascara. I drop myself down and cry harder.

I scream and shout and weep. My hands are shaking so badly but I keep crying.

How can he leave me like this? I trusted him. I let him in. and he walked away like he never saw me or like he never wanted me. I don't know how many minutes passed but I keep crying until the doorbell rang and I get this thought that it must be Adam. He would definitely be joking. He loves me because and thinking about this thing I run and open the door. But it isn't him. He left me. He won't come back. Ever again.

He faded like my parents.