Always is not. Every day is.

chapter 23

Ridge's POV:

I don't know what time it is, it's as if Allon makes me forget about everything. Being around her means being in a world that involves us. All that time when she told me things about her I held her tight in my arms, taking in her scent and brushing my fingers lightly over her hair as if being hard can hurt her which is the last thing that I ever want but then suddenly she becomes quiet and push herself away from me struggling to get out of my arms. She get up and starts pacing the room with a regret look on her face.

She is facing the wall pressing her forehead with both of her hands as if she wants to forget about everything.

She wants to forget about the past few moments that she spent with me?

I also get up from the bed and hold her shoulders to turn her face towards me.

"What happened Allon?" I ask.

"I i-just don't know what is wrong like why did I just?" she takes a step back while freeing her shoulders from my hold.

But I take a step towards her, again gripping them.

"Just what Allon?" I ask dropping my face on her level. Just few inches apart from hers.

"I am so sorry I was being frustrated Ridge I didn't mean to do anything like that. I am so. I am so stupid. I am so sorry." She whisper and I feel my ears wanting to hear more of her words.

"You don't need to be sorry Allon. You didn't even do anything wrong. That's what people to when they are tired of having everything all in themselves. You did the same. You opened up and if you are afraid of trusting me then that too is right but Allon you need to know that not everyone is like Adam. Not every other boy roaming on those streets outside are like Adam. Sure some of the people like him do exist. But you can't just stop trusting everyone because he betrayed you. You need to allow someone in so that you can open up without hesitation. He cheated on you left you like that in the middle of nowhere but that doesn't mean that you will not find someone else or this that you deserved that. We all lose people in our life and there is nothing that we can change about that Allon. They are just cases like meant-to-be. I lost my dad due to cancer years ago but I couldn't help. I couldn't take the cancer from his body and let him stay a single second more in this world that he wasn't destined to have. But do I blame myself for that? Of course no because none of it was in my hand. The same happened to you as well, Allon. He was meant to leave you and he did. Whatsoever happens, happens for our sake." I take her face in both of my hands cupping it carefully as I brush my thumbs on her silky cheeks. "Sometimes we have to have bad days in our life just in order to keep the good ones safe or else we would run out of that." I said all these words looking straight in her eyes because I want to let her know that I am saying all of it because it is a reality not because I am trying to console her only and not once did she blink.

I drop my hands to her arm squeeze it a bit and I can feel the goose bumps rise up on her arm. I lean even more forward towards her ears and whisper "would you like to be my bestie?" and the goose bumps on her neck rise up as well.

Making her feel like this is my target from now onwards. Mark your words Ridge.

I pull my head back in order to see what effects I left on her and I am glad to know that she smiled.

I take her left hand pinky and touched it with mine as I said, "is that a yes?" and she whispers rather loudly "yes" and I grab her pinky with mine, pressing it tightly.

After few second when I pull it back she lean forward and hug me tightly once again pressing her head to my chest. It's good that she is smaller in height because I don't know why but I need her to listen to my heart beat. Once again I grab her back with one hand and brush her soft silky hair with the other one. She pull back after sometime. And as much as I want to hold her again and never let her go I know it isn't the right time.

"What time is it?" she ask. I take my cellphone out of my pocket and look at the time.

Time pass real quick around her.

"12. I didn't even know that?" I say.

"Ah okay!" she say but then something changes. "Oh no! Wait What? 12? Shit shit shit. Layken? She isn't here yet? God where is my phone?" she starts pacing the room searching for the phone here and there as the consciousness hit her about layken.

"It must be downstairs." I say remembering the sight of her phone lying on the couch.

"right." She start to run all the way down the stair and I follow her. As we reach the living room I spot Ryle lying on the couch and of course sleeping.

As allon searches for her phone I go and wake Ryle up.

"Buddy wake up. It's 12. Layken hasn't arrived yet." And suddenly his eyes flew open and he sit back up.

"What? Why?" he ask directing his question towards Allon who is busy making calls on her phone obviously she is calling layken.

"God. I don't know. She said that she will arrive by 10. And I am so stupid that I didn't even know that it's too late and her phone is off." She replies.

"But where is she?" I ask.

"At her mother's place." She say still looking at the phone and hitting keys.

"What the hell? You mean where his father live too? Oh no." Ryle say urgently while getting up from the couch. "You know the entire thing Allon then why did you let layken go back in that house."

And then I get the situation. His father.

Oh no!

"I tried to stop her but she didn't. She didn't meet her mother since a very long time and she needed to go there." Allon say like she regret that she didn't try hard in stopping layken to go there.

"We don't have time to think about all of this. If her phone is dead and she said that she will arrive soon so I think it's best for us to go to her place and see. You know we don't know. We have to prepare. We can't just sit." I say as a matter of fact.

"right." Ryle say

And then the next second we are all heading towards the car.

And then the next second Allon crank the engine. She seems professional.

"Fasten up your seat belts." She say before she scare the shit out of us again and I know that she isn't easy to deal with.